tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56184915064570169292024-03-15T03:37:57.704+08:00Amethian 的小說站Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-13275907847093752492019-06-24T15:03:00.002+08:002019-06-24T15:03:55.352+08:00《漁火別 いさりびべつ》 (updated: 6/24)<h1 dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 6pt; margin-right: -0.744094pt; margin-top: 20pt; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: x-large; font-weight: normal;">作者的話</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">本作中一切人物、事件、思想、設定、傳說、宗教、歷史等等,皆是完全出自想象的架空創作,與現實世界無關,亦無含沙射影之圖。作者對世間稀奇古怪的事情皆有興趣,今回初次以外國為故事舞台,惟才疏學淺,當中少不免有錯漏、未瑧完善,甚至無心冒犯之處,還望看倌多多體諒,恕罪則過。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">Amethian</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: x-large; font-weight: normal;">序章 - 香港</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">濕度超高的曇天,空氣中彷彿瀰漫著一股菌類植物腐壞的味道,尤以高樓密佈的市區地帶為甚,真不知道住在這裡的人是怎樣抵受得住這種令人心煩的天氣。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">午後,市郊。鐵絲網入口似有還無,幸好我身材不算高,總算輕易通過。穿過高不過膝頭的雜草堆,踏到兩個空膠樽,來到一座五層大樓的入口處。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">玻璃大門一開一合,進出的是穿著整齊的職員和勤快的記者。很多採訪車停靠在門外的露天停車場。</span></i></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">「請問有甚麼可以幫你?」接待處一名精神抖擻的年輕女職員問道。她的身旁坐著一位看上去稍為年長、正在接聽電話的女性職員,英文似乎很流利。</span></i></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">咦,剛從升降機走出的,不就是那位紅透半邊天、曾在海外巡迴演唱的歌神嗎?</span></i></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">我讓思緒融入當前環境,想象著這裡昔日興盛的光景。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">當然,如今眼前只是一片冷冰冰的石屎地獄。三原色外牆已褪掉大半,曾高掛在頂樓外牆、象徵靈魂的台徽,也只剩下被太陽曬過的痕跡。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">進入大樓內部,映入眼簾的是牆上幾乎連綿不斷的塗鴉。各式各樣的塗鴉非常具有個性,跟在市區看到的截然不同。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「怎樣,很髒亂吧?」同行伙伴阿揚道。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不,它們很漂亮。放在一塊堪稱藝術品。」的確,我討厭任何破壞廢墟的行徑,但眼前的塗鴉卻意外地為這死氣沉沉的空間添上另一重意義,實在沒法討厭它們。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「繼續往裡面走吧。要趕在日落前離開,不然就麻煩大了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「具體來說,會有甚麼麻煩?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「會看到鬼。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「甚麼……鬼?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「說笑而已。不過摸黑離開始終有其危險性,畢竟是鄉郊地方,街燈又不多。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">跟著阿揚走後樓梯到二樓,有一間類似錄音室的房間,牆上隔音板大部份已損壞,玻璃窗上滿佈塗鴉字句。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">阿揚是地道香港人,也是當地廢墟攝影群組的活躍成員。以前在網上跟他交流認識,從他口中得知香港也有不少值得一去的廢墟。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「我說阿揚,這不會是你第一次來吧?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不,大概來過兩三次吧。上一次是幾年前,跟我以前的女友來。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「她也是個廢墟狂熱者吧?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「嗯~大概不是吧。只是我在追求她期間硬拉她過來而已。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「喔喔原來如此。不過在廢墟裡約會也真是別有氣氛呢。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「我就是喜歡與別不同嘛……雖然,最後還是跟她分了手。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這也是沒辦法的事呢。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">三樓以上的層數被間隔成很多房間,一直到尾的走廊兩旁盡是各式各樣的工作室,也有打通兩層的舞台劇綵排室。不少房間的牆壁有遭到人為破壞的痕跡,能從破開的大洞通往另一房間。整個環境佈置像迷宮一樣,不禁令我想起早年流行的第一身射擊遊戲。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large;">茶水間</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">以電筒照射著,門上褪色的字在幽暗的環境下勉強可見,那是一個L形房間,靠近入口上有一個雙門冰箱,門緊緊關上,令人有種想要打開一條縫一窺究竟的衝動——</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">才怪。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">作為經常出入人跡罕至自然環境的探索者,對於周圍事物自養成了一種危機意識,知道事物存在在目前狀態之下的意義。換個講法,就像專門探索野生動植物的生物學家,看到顏色鮮艷的蛙類自會提高警覺避免走近一般,屬於一種後天培養的意識。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">面前這個冰箱分明就像寫了「不要命就打開」幾個字在上面一般。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「想打開就打開看看嘛。」阿揚走到我身旁,像是試探般說著。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「別想騙我,裡頭一定不會有甚麼好東西。」我一揮手,提著電筒繼續往茶水間深處走。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「也不一定啦。倒是你最好不要走近房間深處喔,別怪我沒提醒你。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「走近又如何,難不成會有鬼嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「鬼倒沒有。屍體的話或許會有。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「哈、哈、哈」我對阿揚的玩笑乾笑幾聲作回應,把電筒照到房間盡頭。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">一具屍體。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">是人類,男性,背靠牆頭朝下坐著。有點難聞的味道。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">即使有一定探險經驗如我,稀奇古怪的東西早已見過很多,面對目前實實在在的屍體,還是不免受到驚嚇,冷汗直滲。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「怎麼了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「有死人。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「死人?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「對,就在這,我面前。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">阿揚來到我身旁,安裝在帽子上的電筒照向地上的屍體。「看我說中了吧。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「那……是死去多久了?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「怎知道,你當我是驗屍官嗎?」阿揚環顧周遭。「也有可能根本不是死人呢,你看這裡。」指著屍體一旁的地面,有一個打開的發泡膠飯盒,裡頭有吃剩的骨頭。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「再看這。」角落處有一條沾有跡斑灰塵的毛巾(估計原本該是白色的),仔細一看還包裹著針筒。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「真的是死了麼?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">阿揚攤攤手,反問道:「你指肉體還是心靈?」轉身離開茶水間。我也跟在後面,臨走時隱約聽見一下極輕微的低吟。到底他是死了、睡了、昏了,還是正在某片無可名狀的絢爛花海中自由穿梭?大概只有當事人自己才知。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">走廊兩邊有很多房間,房間門口與門口之間有很多相框,相框絕大部份不是空空如也就是被塗鴉所遮蓋,幾乎沒有找到完整的電視劇海報,大概是大樓丟空之前被員工拿走當紀念品吧。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">要是這樣還好。在這棟舊電視廠廢墟一路走來,滿眼盡是受到人為破壞的痕跡,彷彿要將一磚一瓦都盡情破壞、挖空為止。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「對了,阿揚。關於這家電視台……」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「怎麼了?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「它算是不受觀眾歡迎那種電視台嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「沒錯。連這都知道,你也挺厲害的吧。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「所以就被破壞成這田地了嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">走在前頭的阿揚突然停步,然後抬頭「哈、哈、哈」大笑三聲,又搖搖頭苦笑。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「別誤會,我並不是在笑你,只是你這想法真的很……創新。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「甚麼意思?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這家電視台的而且確不受歡迎。二、三十年前還好,偶爾有令人驚喜的優質節目,足以跟大台分庭抗禮。那是這家電視台的員工能夠挺起胸膛自我介紹的日子。可是近年資金緊絀,既拍不出好節目,也留不住人才。願意投資的都是些錢多人傻之輩,製作的節目怪裡怪氣,淪為年輕人的笑柄,也迫使原本的忠實支持者一個一個離去,連帶導致廣告商抽起廣告,就這樣慢慢被時代淘汰了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「是衰落的巨人呢。」我推開連接天台那度形同虛設的門,和阿揚雙雙到達天台。看到了一片諧和的茜空,迎面而來的風比市區的更清爽一點。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「可以這樣說,不過和你看到的沒有關係。這棟廢墟之所以滿佈破壞痕跡,原因也只是因為人們喜歡它變成這個樣子罷了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「喜歡它亂七八糟、破破爛爛的樣子?」我看著儲水箱外牆上一個約莫 2 米乘 2 米的巨型塗鴉。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「破爛也好,藝術也好,扭曲也好,」阿揚把一瓶倒下的噴漆扶正。「人們就是想將這裡變成他們心目中的樂園——直至它被夷為平地為止。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「甚麼?這裡要被拆了嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「誰知道呢。今天還得以殘存,明天可能就賣給地產商建豪宅了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「真是過份呢。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「慣了。」阿揚重重嘆了一口氣。「好了,天要黑了,再不走可不妙。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「走不了就在這兒借宿一宵也不錯嘛。」我打趣道。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這兒?不了。其他人怎樣我不理,我未試過也不想試。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「還真有人在這裡過夜嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「怎麼沒有。至少有兩班野戰愛好者喜歡趁著月黑風高前來決戰,說是真實版C○甚麼的。當然還有你剛才遇到那尾吸毒鹹魚。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">鹹魚是屍體的意思。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><i><span style="font-size: large;">他是死了麼……你指肉體還是心靈?</span></i></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">不久前的對答重現腦海。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">第一章 - 廢墟</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">像燃燒生命般完成了公司指派的一個重要項目,換來連周末在內的六天連假,決定利用其中四天去一趟旅行。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">我是不抗拒以觀光和吃喝玩樂為主的旅行,可是比起這種,我更享受走到人煙稀少的角落,探訪大大小小的廢墟和古跡。昔日曾經熱鬧風光紙醉金迷,如今只剩下過期宣傳品和圍板的商場;民居內正被苔蘚和蕨類侵蝕的地板,淪為灰黑霉菌溫床的壁紙;病房留下生鏽而扭曲的鐵架病床,伴隨著棄置不用的儀器,看起來就像施行酷刑的暗室;廢校裡栩栩如生的蝦夷鹿標本,如今在歪倒破落的桌椅環抱下諷刺地成為最接近生物的存在。身處在不同的廢墟中,我總能感受到它們在訴說著各自的歷史,放映著不同時空上的人們的生活。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">我就是所謂的「廢墟狂熱者」。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">花費了一整天做資料搜集,在幾個目的地之間搖擺不定,最後決定前往位於北海道內陸,距離札幌兩個半小時車程的郊區:漁火別村。這個面積狹小的地方人口已跌至三位數字,沒有任何觀光景點,也沒有可以作為招徠的在地美食,完全是個破落不堪的破村,它的名字恐怕永遠不會出現在旅遊雜誌上。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">這個名不經傳的窮鄉之所以吸引我,原因就是這裡的廢墟。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">除了村役場周邊小範圍有一家旅館、兩家餐廳以及零星小店之外,整個區域充滿丟空的房子和停用的設施,附近還有已經無人居住多年的集落、關閉的神社、荒廢掉的辦公室和學校等等。因為人跡罕至,往來交通不方便,建築物遭到人為破壞的狀況在平均水平以下。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">乘國內線到札幌再租車,從高速路換到鄉間小路,有些路段還殘餘著年前被颶風蹂躪的痕跡,歪倒的房子和倒木點綴了荒涼。中途人有三急下車解決,發現路邊的野草長得像人一般高。到達漁火別村村役場時已將近午後六點,首天就這樣在交通工具中度過。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">次日以村役場為中心,先向東走參觀炭礦立坑、選炭場和炭工浴場遺跡。昔日作為採礦工程的小社區如今遭到筆直的行車道一分為二,礦工流下的汗水滋潤了土地,化成眼前遍地野草。浴場不再有供水系統,取而代之的是寄生植物和說不出名字的昆蟲。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">到村役場對面的家庭餐館恢復元氣過後,便馬不停蹄往西走,目的地是一里開外的荒廢地帶。村口構造簡單的冂型鐵牌坊完全被鐵鏽侵蝕,起伏不平的柏油路是日久失修的結果,兩旁商店清一色拉下大閘,部份以木板把窗口封死,招牌像老婆婆的牙一般絕無僅有。沿著步道往深處走,小心翼翼踏上或多或少出現裂痕的石階,在樹木的圍繞下,有一家廢神社。神社建築的門窗都封上木板,手水舎的水盤沒有水是意料中事,倒下的燈籠半埋在野草中,成了小動物的休憩之所。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">第三天的行程安排,是前往村役場以南一所兩層高的荒廢辦公室並入內探索。由於沒有車路,只能穿越 30 分鐘腳程的山林道前往——幸好沒有下雨,否則所需時間最少增加一半也更危險。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">來到一所兩層荒廢辦公室建築前。即使遍尋網上廢墟群組,所收獲的資料也不全面,只能夠拼拼湊湊出一個大概:辦公室在十多年前建成,卻在同年丟空荒廢,公司業務不詳,不大可靠的消息指那是一家小型保險公司,唯此說法的真偽存疑,畢竟在遠離交通要道的角落開保險公司,本身就不合邏輯。也有傳言指那裡曾發生命案,「對靈異之物有特殊反應者不建議靠近」。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">進入兩層辦公室的地下,看似是接待處的櫃臺上有舊式大螢幕電腦和電話,靠牆處有一列暖爐。長沙發成了培育小草的盤栽,在旁的飲水機內裡蘊藏的物質讓人想入非非。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">二樓格局非常簡單:四組辦公室桌椅,以間隔板隔開,盡頭有會議室和廁所,還有放置冰箱和咖啡機的空間。文件散落一地,很多已腐化,被蟲蛀被水淹得體無完膚。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">排除廢墟的特徵,這裡的一切都跟平常的辦公室無異。但是一所平平無奇的辦公室,為甚麼要開在山區之中?誰願每天攀山涉水來上班?哪有客戶會特地到這種荒山野嶺來開會?</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">一個黑影在梯間閃過。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">就在剛剛拍照時,從鏡頭瞥見一個黑影快速閃過,本能反應地按下快門,卻沒有成功把黑影捕捉到。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">是小動物嗎?</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">也有可能是同樣前來探索廢墟的人。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">還是只是自己的手指在鏡頭前揮過?</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">是夜做了一個疑幻疑真的夢。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">黑夜。在沒有色彩的森林中緩步前行,四周都是高到幾乎看不見枝椏的大樹,黑色枯葉滿佈地上,乾而脆的幼枝一踏即碎,無論走多久景色也不變。似是迷失,想叫喊但喊不出聲,往不同方向走也找不到出路。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">走著走著走了好長一段時間,隱約聽到前方響起低沉的吼聲,有種要遭遇巨獸襲擊的不詳預感。改變前進的方向,低吼聲卻逐漸由四面八方傳來,把無助的我包圍在中心。雙腿一軟,癱坐地上,壓到地上的枯葉,發出如餅乾碎裂的聲音。無數點白光從漆黑中頓現,像海邊的漁火,向我步步進逼。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">下一刻,地面像是開了個洞,把我如同掉進深海般吸進去。枯葉、樹木,還有那點點白光和令人心寒的低吼,隨著我高速向下掉而遠離,不消多久便在視線中消失。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">周圍是無盡的漆黑。甚至看不到自己的身軀,只能憑感覺認定目前正以胸口向上屁股向下接近躺著的姿勢向下墮,四肢掙扎著想要抓住甚麼,卻徒勞無功。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">跌勢逐漸放緩。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">彷彿有一股力量,或者是一股強大逆風,大大減慢我向下墮的速度,最後猶如穿著降落傘般,輕柔地降落到一片柔軟而溫暖的表面,完全沒有痛楚。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">漆黑被一道突如其來,猶如照明彈發揮作用的白光驅走。我本能地掩住雙眼,感覺強光消失了,才慢慢把雙眼張開。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">傳統且有點殘舊的和室。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">過去三晚留宿之所。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">透過窗戶照射在被鋪上的陽光。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">安然無恙躺在被窩裡的我。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">早上 10 點。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">起床時間跟昨晚上床時間相差 12 小時,理論上睡眠時間充足有餘,可是這一刻卻感到十二萬分疲累,幾乎想繼續躺著甚麼也不做。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">旅館早餐時間已過,只好到附近餐館找吃的,同時重新構思今日接下來的行程。原定計劃早上離開漁火別村,到札幌大通一帶看手辦,作為行程完結前的最後一站。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">然而對昨天在荒廢辦公室中瞥見的黑影,還是無法置之不理,加上昨晚那奇怪的夢,直覺地覺得兩者之間多少有些關聯。最後決定再前往那邊一次。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">穿過林道,荒廢辦公室的狀況跟昨天一樣:入口處有被撕下的警察封條,只是象徵式存在的木門破爛了九成,不用特意推開也能進內。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">並非所有的廢墟都安全,大部份中等資歷的廢墟探索者都明白這道理。長期與世隔絕的廢墟是昆蟲和野獸的天堂,貿然進入的後果可大可小——被熊襲擊、被毒蛇咬、被蜂群圍攻,無一不是致命的。除了自然因素,也有人為的影響:失修建築因積雪而倒塌,未經妥善處理的有毒氣體因容器腐壞而洩漏等等。有人把這種人為構成的意外稱為「古人的玩笑」,實際上也不是開玩笑。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">因為昨天出現的黑影,今天比平時更具警覺,瞻前顧後,不放過周圍每一個小動靜。也許有點神經質過頭,但這樣至少能令我及早察覺危險。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">人在二樓,身後忽然吹起一陣急風,右肩感到刺骨寒意。驚慌和警戒一刹交錯,下意識望向右側,沒有發現任何可疑的事物。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">那不是幻覺。剛才的急風到底是……</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">正躊躇間,聽見左方樓梯口方向有腳步聲傳來,讓我的警戒心進一步提高到備戰狀態。右手按住扣在皮帶上的皮包,準備隨時拿出萬用刀;左手也握緊褲袋中的電筒。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">一個身影在樓梯口出現。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">一個梳淺棕短髮,穿著森林綠色連身裙和白布鞋,看上去年約二十的女孩。個子不高,無神的雙目望著我,輕輕微笑點頭示意,完全是一副人畜無害的樣子,令警戒狀態下的我看上去有點笨。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">為了化解當下的尷尬,我也對眼前的女孩點頭,自我介紹:「幸會,我名叫純,是位廢墟狂熱者。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「廢墟?這裡?」女孩的語調和聲線都很柔和。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「沒錯,廢棄的建築跟未被觀光景點化的古跡等等,都是我想要去探索的地方。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「嗯……」女孩似乎對我所說的不感興趣。經過數秒鐘尷尬的沉默,女孩終再開口:「我就住在這裡。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這裡……?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「我的意思是住在這附近,在小河的對岸。這裡根本不可能住人吧。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「說的也是。對了,你也喜歡廢墟吧?既然會來這裡的話。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「喜歡……?應該說,我習慣獨個兒待在沒有人也沒有雜音的地方,例如這裡。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「十分抱歉,打擾了你的清靜。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「別這樣說。很高興認識你。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">那麼,要同行嗎——正想這樣問,想起對方明言喜歡獨處,實在不宜再打擾。當下把句子換成了「那麼,我先告辭了」然後離開。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">身為喜歡攝影的人,對於被阻礙拍攝可謂經驗豐富——被突然轉出街角的路人破壞構圖,被其他攝影者的器材或身軀阻擋位置,諸如此類不勝枚舉。正因為如此,我在攝影的時候特別不希望妨礙別人,不能為別人帶來困擾,尤其是旅行期間更要盡可能避免打擾當地人。這大概是「不要成為自己最討厭的人」的概念吧。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">反正都已經拍了不少照片,這就回去也無妨。而且也順道解開了昨天從鏡頭邊閃過的黑影之謎,不至於帶著疑問離開。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">走出荒廢辦公室門口時被去水渠口稍為絆到一下跌了個踉蹌,幸好附近沒有人經過,未至於大出洋相。拍拍身上的灰塵,向著村役場的方向走去。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">連接村役場的小路人跡罕至,路邊長滿雜草和笹百合,足有半個人高。風搖曳著樹葉,發出爽朗而和諧的自然之音,和背包上熊鈴鈴聲很搭。交錯的枝枒形成透風的隧道,把過剩的陽光擋在外頭。這段路昨天和今天都有走過,來回總共走了四次。可是現在走著走著走到一半,卻隱約感到一種受到束縛的不安感。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">我正在被跟隨。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">保持前行步速,同時在腦裡分析現況:由於背包上已掛上了熊鈴,因此被野生動物跟隨的可能性不大,換言之很有可能是人。但那會是誰呢?在這舉目無人鳥不拉屎的地方,除了剛才遇上的女孩以外一個人也沒有,況且以她的身形而言,也很難以相近步速追近我。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">加快腳步。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">登山鞋粗暴地踏在泥地上,濺起的泥沾污了褲腳。熊鈴搖曳幅度更大聲音更響,正好襯托我濃重的呼吸聲。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">跟隨我的人也在加速,而且愈發迫近。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">對方為何能走這麼快?要停下來正面迎擊嗎?還是先看看身後的情況再作打算?正當我在設想一連串問題時,右肩就被一股頗重的力量拍了一下,讓我嚇得寒意陡生。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「喂,鬼鬼祟祟的在這裡幹甚麼?」回頭一看,是一名中年男性巡警。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">糟糕,竟然在這種地方遇上巡警,大概是剛才瞧見了我從廢棄辦公室中走出來之故。雖然人去樓空,但理論上那裡仍屬於私人地方,加上門前還有警察署封條,在這種情況下被抓個正著,可真是百口莫辯了。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「警……警察先生你好。今天天氣還……不錯嘛。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「少廢話!那幢樓禁止進入,你不知道嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「對不起!真的對不起!我——」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「以為這裡是鄉下地方就能放肆了嗎?!」巡警用教師教訓學生的語氣斥責我。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不好意思——」一把女聲伴隨著慢跑而來的腳步,來到我和巡警身旁。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">是剛才在廢棄辦公室裡遇到的女孩。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這是我的朋友,我剛跟他失散了,還好在這裡遇上。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「哦,原來是熟人。」巡警看到了女孩,態度頓時和緩起來。「看來是一場誤會了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「每天的巡邏工作辛苦你了,感謝你保護我們這一帶的安全。」女孩微笑著跟巡警點頭,轉過頭跟我說:「走吧。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">巡警揮手跟我倆道別,向著廢棄辦公室的方向走,消失在大樹轉角處。總算脫險了。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「謝謝你。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">女孩在連身裙口袋裡找了找,掏出一塊鏡頭蓋,放在我面前。「剛才你遺下了這個,我幫你拿來了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「喔喔,這是……」一看掛在頸上的相機,果然缺少了鏡頭蓋。「竟然忘記了,真差勁。謝謝你特意拿過來。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不用客氣呀。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「對了,你是怎麼發現我被巡警纏上的呢?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「這個嘛,剛才在辦公室那邊,你一縷煙的走了,我本打算抄小路在前面碰上你,然後就看到你和那位巡警了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「原來還有小路的呢。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「別忘記我是在這裡居住的嘛。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">邊走邊談,心情放鬆了不少,但邊是對被巡警逮著有點在意,不禁向身邊剛剛出手相救的女孩吐幾句苦水。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">警察是廢墟探索的一大煩惱。很多警員把探索者視為眼中釘,隨便套上擅闖私人地方的罪名進行逮捕,還把在廢墟中塗鴉和破壞的責任全推在探索者身上。須知惡意塗污和破壞只是由極少數無恥之徒所為,我還有很多心理正常的探索者,都視廢墟為珍貴的名勝古跡,又豈會輕言破壞?</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">女孩靜靜聽我訴苦,微笑中有種「雖然不太明白,但我還是同意你的話」的意味。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">踏著木橋渡過一條小河,走到一個路口,大約再往前走五分鐘就能到達村役場。這時女孩停下來,問我道:「要是不嫌棄的話,來舍下坐坐嗎?」我想既然接下來沒有行程,對方剛才又仗義相助,實在沒有推卻的理由,便答應跟女孩同行。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">本以為會是被廣闊田野包圍的田舍之家,實際上是外壁頗為殘舊的長屋。各家門前有長短多少不一的雜草,反映了進出的頻密度。女孩所住的一伙門前掛了幾件女性衣服,還有木桶等簡單的洗濯設備。長滿鐵鏽的信箱一旁有個手寫的「3」字。門看起來有點重,但她幾乎毫不費勁就推開來了。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「打擾了。」進入門口脫掉鞋子。本身放著的鞋只有兩對,意外地少。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「鄉下地方破破爛爛的,希望你別介意。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「哦不,完全沒有這回事。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">話雖如此,室內家具陳設實在有夠老舊。木櫃裡的電視機在舊年代電影十分常見,眼前這個不知還能不能開著。暖水壺的款式是十多二十年前的,生產它的公司目前已瀕臨倒閉。几上的果盤和我爺爺家的有八分相似,內裡放著幾個正值成熟的橙,有趣的對比。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">坐在冷冰的蒲團上,看著女孩端出熱茶。帶古風的茶具精巧優雅,在市面上很少見,禁不住仔細欣賞。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「很抱歉家裡不常來客,只有殘舊的東西,實在太丟臉了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「別這樣說。我才要感謝你的盛情招待。茶味道很好喔。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「謝謝……你剛才說你是『廢墟狂熱者』,那是很喜歡待在廢墟的意思嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「沒錯。廢墟呀,雖然已經人去樓空,但卻是盛載了故人的感情和故事。身處其中,試著想象曾經在廢墟出入的人們的生活,過去和現在就在那一瞬間融合起來,非常有趣。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「真的嗎?我可沒那麼深入探究,只是純粹地享受廢墟那種與世隔絕的寧靜而已。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「說的也是。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「你到過很多廢墟嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「嗯嗯,算是多吧。以前甚至到過外國探索一番。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「國外也有廢墟嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「當然有呀。因結業或搬遷而荒廢的廠房不在話下。有些地方因為人口外移或天災,整個區域無人居住,變成了死城;也有因經濟泡沫爆破而中止投資的新市鎮,明明都是新建樓房,周圍卻一個人也沒有。還真的是還未出生就已終老了呢。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「那真是不幸呢。」女孩低下頭。「不過……我還未曾踏足國外,因此無法想象外國廢墟的模樣。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「是這樣嗎。對了,你稍等一下……」我拿出手機,正欲打開我的網上相簿,卻發現這裡完全沒有網絡覆蓋,只好作罷。「很遺憾,還打算給你看看我以前拍的廢墟照。看來是辦不到的了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「那個……真的非常抱歉,舍下設備簡陋——」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不不不,這不是你的問題啦。我回去把照片寄給你怎樣?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「真的可以嗎?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「當然可以。我跟幾個喜歡廢墟探索的朋友組成了同好會,也順道把他們拍的照片也寄給你吧。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「太好了……想不到用甚麼言語來多謝你才對。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不必客氣啦!難得在異地交到朋友,以後就請多多指教了。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「朋友……嗯嗯,多多指教——請稍等一下。」女孩離座到外面去,不到一分鐘就回來,手上多了一小張紙,上面用墨水筆寫了地址。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「回去有空的話,可以給我寄信喔。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「約定了。你也要回信喔。」我看一眼壁上的鐘。「我也差不多該起程了。請問從這種走到村役場要多久?我的車停在那附近。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「我想……大概 15 分鐘左右?應該不會超過 20 分鐘的。」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「謝謝你,那麼我先告辭了。」我把寫了地址的小紙摺好放進銀包裡。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">從漁火別村開車到札幌花了兩個半小時,晚上還要坐近兩小時飛機才抵達東京。趁著坐車去機場之前兩個半小時的空檔,到租車行附近餐廳林立的街道,選了一家食客不多的小店,作為今次旅程最後的晚餐。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">等待上菜的期間,從錢包取出寫上地址的小紙,回味著今天的旅程,心想光是這一天的經歷也足夠我寫一篇小說:早上從奇幻的惡夢中甦醒,在離開廢墟途上被巡警截查,幸好得到只有一面之緣的神秘女孩出手相助,才得以化險為夷,還被邀約到家裡去。女孩和身為公務人員的巡警之間要有怎樣的關係,才能只用一句說話就令對方完全釋疑?女孩家裡清一色舊式設備和裝潢是甚麼一回事?她是獨居還是與家人同住?還有那連身裙——為甚麼要穿著連身裙到雜草叢生的廢墟裡去?</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">也罷。所謂各處鄉村各處例,不同地方有不同的風土人情和習慣,我所認識的一套也未必放諸四海皆準。想到這裡心情倒是輕鬆不少,熱騰騰的豚肉湯咖哩也剛好送到。我不客氣了。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「不好意思!」甫離開餐廳,一名綁著馬尾的女侍應隨後而至。「先跟你道歉,但我剛才意外地看到你手上的地址,請問是誰給你的?」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「一個……朋友吧。」初相識的人說是朋友也可以嗎?我有點猶豫。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「那個,方便留個電郵嗎?有些事情很在意,希望你多少能解答一下。拜託了。」馬尾女侍低頭雙手合什,態度甚為誠懇。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">「太好了,謝謝你!」</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">這時店內傳來老闆的呼喊,馬尾女侍一邊說著「我下班就找你」一邊跑向餐廳大門。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">飛機因不明原因延誤了接近兩小時,航行途中又有全程不斷大呼小叫的屁孩,讓我完全無法好好休息,真是禍不單行。在機場坐計程車時已陷入半昏迷狀態,差點忘記付錢就下車。回家後立刻衝上睡床,洗澡……甚麼的……睡……睡……醒……再……再……</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">還是家裡的床最棒。像是清還賭債般大睡一場,醒來時已是中午時份,怎一箇爽字了得。遠行初歸,周六午後,打正旗號游手好閒。反正今晚還有飯局,泡澡過後就靠方便麵跟動畫回魂吧。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">這時,昨晚因電池耗盡而沉睡的電話剛好復活,開機後馬上連續振動了好幾下,說是有新的郵件。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">把它們逐一打開,發現都是半夜發出的,而且發信者都是同一人。</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">時間:02:25<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>深夜時份冒昧打擾、不勝抱歉。我名叫祐里,是○○餐廳的女侍。</i><br />(我心想:抱歉就等早上再寄呀)</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:02:29<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>剛才我說很在意的事情就是你手上的地址。那是我的出生地,也就是說那地址可能屬於我認識的人。從那邊遷出已是很多年前的事,突然看到這地址,稍為有一點點思鄉的感覺,僅此而已。</i><br />(心想:思鄉就坐車回去呀)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">時間:02:42寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>方便的話,可以告訴我是誰把那地址給你的嗎?</i>(想:你私家偵探喔?)</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:02:59<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>期待你的答覆,希望你能答應這不情之請。再次為夜間打擾你致歉。</i><br />(:要是被這封郵件吵醒絕不輕饒你)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">時間:04:05<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>要是你不想回覆,就請把我忘掉吧。刪除這些郵件也可以。我不過是隨便問問而已,不知道也沒有關係。</i><br />(那到底你想不想知道……)</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「這叫祐里的人說話還真多」我心想。不過估計她並沒有惡意,當下便將在漁火別村廢墟遇到穿連身裙的女孩,以及到女孩家中作客並得到地址一事,透過郵件扼要告知。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">收到回信是不到半分鐘的事,只有簡單一句:「電話OK?」我便把電話號碼轉了過去——當時並沒想到這是一連串麻煩事情的開端。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「原來你真的不是本地人。」祐里說話速度很快,讓人感覺很有壓迫感。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「忙裡偷閒來遊山玩水罷了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「昨晚在餐廳聽你的口音已猜到大半,沒想到是從那麼遠的地方來。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「再遠也不過是國內,沒甚麼特別的。我一有時間就穿州過省,走訪各地的古跡和廢墟。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「厲害。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「沒甚麼啦。對了,關於那地址——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「糟糕!我沒時間了你先別說話聽我講!」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那剛才就不要寒喧啦……」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「閉嘴,我問你答。」居然對我下起命令來,膽子真不小。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是的,警察小姐,我一定從實招來。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「誰給你那地址?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「一位新相識。說實的我也不知道她的身份——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「名字?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「沒有問。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「淺棕色短頭髮,五官不算大。身高的話……約莫五尺吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「有這些特徵的人滿街都是,再精準點!」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不行不行不行不行,上課要遲到了。你給我好好想想,我下課再找——」未把最後一句聽完,祐里已掛斷了電話。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">掛斷電話後我呆住好一會,想到有求於人的人竟然用這種態度說話,真的是無法無天。同時也在後悔剛才為何輕易將電話號碼交給那種陌生人,除了自討苦吃之外我想不到更貼切的形容。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">一個多小時的動畫為我注入動力,接下來就要整理旅行行裝。清空背包,把髒衣服丟進洗衣機,放好行山裝備,還有最重要的,把幾天以來拍到的照片存到電腦裡去。照片數量相當多,要全數放進電腦大概需要不少時間。這時我想起了那張寫著地址的小紙。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">心中疑團重重。疑團都是圍繞手上的地址而來。首先「大字」跟「字」這種表記地址的方式早已被淘汰,現在恐怕只有極少數堅守舊道的人或個別地方的老人沿用此寫法,新人郵差看到大概也會一頭霧水吧,而偏偏給我這地址的,是一個看上去比我還要年輕的女孩。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">另外,在網上地圖輸入地址搜尋,發現地點落差甚大——女孩居住的長屋位於村役場以南,而搜尋地址所得的地點卻在村役場以北約一里外,附近除了叢林之外甚麼也沒有。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">是在捉弄我嗎?想想又覺得不大可能。首先幫我打發了巡警,再請我到家裡作客,說著保持聯絡卻給我一個無法聯絡的假地址,怎說都不符合邏輯。也有想過或許那是她公司的地址——別傻了,那裡只有一大片叢林,難不成會有個信箱在那兒收信?</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">要是照樣把信寄出去會怎樣?其實也不會怎樣——郵局查無此地址,根據回郵地址把信退回給我。最差的情況也只是把信當垃圾丟掉,對我自身而言談不上甚麼大損失。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">既然如此,寫就寫吧。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">電話這時響起。「可惡,又是那沒有禮貌的侍應生嗎?」帶著備戰心情接電話,來電者卻是另有其人。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「阿純!已經回來了吧!」一貫元氣滿滿的聲線,一聽就知是誰。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「當然記得。待會就出門啦。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「當然。待會兒見吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:14:42<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>想了想我剛才的說話態度好像不太好,對你造成冒犯的話在此先跟你道歉。對不起。</i><br />(總算發現自己的問題了)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:14:48<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>別誤會,我不過是想正式道一次歉而已,這樣我的心會好過點。並沒有求你跟我說話的意思。</i><br />(最後一句分明就是目的呀)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:15:06<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>我不過是有那麼一點點想知道故鄉的狀況而已,並不是甚麼要緊的事,要是你不幫我也沒所謂。</i><br />(等等,我有答應過幫忙嗎?)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:15:15<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>反正我都離開了那麼多年,那邊的環境我早已全無印象了,舊同學甚麼的大概也忘掉了吧。</i><br />(看郵件發出的頻密度,這傢伙根本沒有在用心聽課吧)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">時間:15:38<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>我的記憶不是很清楚,只記得當年搬離漁火別村時我還是國小生,而且事出突然……大概是發生了甚麼石破天驚的大事吧。要是你有興趣聽的話,說給你聽倒也無妨。</i><br />(別擅自打開話題呀呀呀呀)</span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: large;">時間:15:56<br />寄件人:yuri-skmt0801@△△△.com<br />訊息:<i>被教授發現我電話不離手,給罵了個臭頭。都怪你!</i><br />(呵呵,活該。不過為甚麼要怪我呢?)</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;"><i>你願意告訴我的話,我也十分樂意聽。你把要說的經由郵件告訴我,我今晚聚會完結再慢慢看,這樣可以了吧?</i>——把這段字傳給祐里,便整裝待發,向著燒肉店進發。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: x-large; font-weight: normal;">第三章 - 燒肉</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">廢墟同好會燒肉聚會,所有成員應約出席。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">趟開個室的木門,已有三人在席。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">國中同學、人像攝影專家市村一夫(26),身高腳長,體型瘦削,天生一頭綣髮,運動細胞意外地不錯。他和我在中二時認識,後來升讀同一所高中。起初我以為一夫只是個純粹喜歡攝影、憧憬未來當攝影師的男孩,沒想到他對廢墟也是情有獨鍾。發現同好的契機是高中畢業旅行——所有人都在找當地旅遊熱點和美食,只有我和一夫兩個像擅自脫隊的士兵般,找尋附近可去的廢墟。拿著向老爸借來的相機左拍右拍,相視而笑,是發現身處同一維度上的人的喜悅。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">相比起單純拍廢墟實況,一夫更喜歡帶同道具甚至模特兒,利用廢墟作背景拍出驚艷的作品。他的畢業作品是一部以他女友(現已分手)為模特兒,穿上鮮紅色古著,在廢棄多年的遊樂園拍攝的攝影集。攝影集為他帶來很高評價,也是他在攝影界嶄露頭角的起點。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">坐在一夫對面的竹田美音(28),正是剛才打電話給我的人。她和我就讀同一所大學,在社團活動中認識。因外貌和身高經常被誤認為高中生,實際上比我和一夫還要大兩歲。專攻男多女少的考古學,起初因性別和瘦小的體型不被看好,卻憑藉過人的洞察力和分析能力,以優異的成績畢業。美音求知慾很強,對身邊所有事物都有濃厚的好奇心,且能接受各種不同的想法和立場,是一位不可多得的伙伴。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">至於坐在美音身旁的是小光,本名為多田羅ヒカリ(24)。和活潑好動的美音相反,小光個性比較內斂,對周遭環境的感覺異常敏銳。迷信鬼神之說,對神秘的事物倍感興趣。髮型跟《千與千尋》裡的白龍有八九成相似,以左手食指和拇指揉搓略顯乾損的髮尾是她一貫的小動作。美音和小光可算是一組相對概念:元氣對文靜,接受度高對固執,呼朋引伴對陰沉。有趣的是她跟美音感情非常要好,也不失為一個善良的人,不時用自己的方式關懷著大家,但有時也有毒舌的一面。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">難得等到一夫和美音興高采烈地討論海外旅行的空檔,我趕緊問:「阿弘呢?他不來嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「『抱歉啦還要留在學校處理點事會晚一點點來喔不要偷跑喔』。」美音棒讀阿弘的訊息。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「真是個大忙人呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「就他的忙碌程度而言,能來已是不錯了。畢竟之前兩次聚會他都沒來。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「來了。」小光以一貫平板的腔調道。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「來了?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「來了!」個室木門趟開,一位下顎滿是鬚根、眼細鼻大樣子像卡通人物般的男子站在門口,正是阿弘。他面帶歉意苦笑揮著手,坐在我的身旁。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「喔喔小光好厲害!」美音雙掌貼在雙頰上,一副剛看見神跡的表情。「你是怎樣知道的?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我能感覺到。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「就在阿弘你進來之前,小光就說你已經來了,就像有預知能力一般,好厲害好厲害!」美音手舞足蹈地向臉上寫著問號的阿弘解釋。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「又來了。」阿弘對美音所說的不以為然。「預知未來甚麼的,只是根據門外腳步聲判斷有人將要進來吧。又或者是剛好猜中而已。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我的確感覺到的。」即使遭到懷疑,但小光的語氣中沒有任何不快的意味。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「感覺甚麼的太抽象了吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「你餓了,吃吧,別放涼了。」完全無視阿弘的說話,小光把兩塊燒肉夾進阿弘的碟子上。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">皆川弘(33)比我們幾個都要年長一截,目前在市內一所大學當研究員,課餘常流連於實驗室中。雖然專攻化學,但對歷史也相當有興趣,喜歡透過探索和蒐集資料去理解事物。超級理性主義者,對沒有邏輯或根據的事物全然不感興趣,不時與純粹憑感覺行事的小光爭吵。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「對了,」一夫放下剛喝了一口的啤酒問我道。「旅行怎麼樣?一切順利嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「嗯嗯,就到了一個叫漁火別村的地方,去看那兒的古跡和集落廢墟。」當下便把行程的見聞由頭到尾,包括在廢棄辦公室中遇到穿連身裙的神秘女孩,一一分享。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那種地方竟然還有年輕人在居住,真是不可思議呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「對呀,我起初也以為只有老人才會留守這種幾乎連田地也沒有的窮鄉。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「喂喂,別只顧用文字描述啦,快把照片拿出來分享。」阿弘說著,又把一塊燒肉塞進嘴裡。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">這次旅行拍了超過一千張照片,當中不少是同一角度重覆拍的,也有如晚餐和路牌等等的隨拍,由於數量太多,根本來不及在聚會前篩選整理好。但看他們幾個圍著我的平板看得津津有味,似乎並沒有在介意。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「這道菜光看照片也能感到新鮮度爆表,真想吃一次。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「看這廢隧道!超~可愛喲。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我看這張廢神社的照片,要是配上雪境,一定更美。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「好看。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">四人一直賞面讚歎,害我也感到難為情。為了逃避尷尬,只好專心吃多點燒肉吧。(笑)</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是一所荒廢辦公室呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「哦,是的。好像在十多年前發生過事故,然後就一直丟空至今了。」我解釋道。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">在深山裡的兩層辦公室,到底是誰決定選址的呢?關閉的原因又是甚麼?門外的警察署封條,是否暗示著這裡曾經發生過甚麼事情?</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">我是否踏足了充滿謎團的禁忌之所?</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">慶幸至少我能夠全身而退,回到絢爛溫暖的城市,和朋友們同晉晚餐。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「喂美音,可以轉下一張了嗎?這張已經看好久了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不行!請再讓我看清楚點。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">餐桌對面貌似出現小騷動,我放下吃剩半塊的燒羊肉片,只見一夫不斷嘗試將屏幕滑到下一張相片,而美音則拚命滑回上一張。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">那是一張荒廢辦公室二樓的照片。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「請看看這裡。」美音把平板搶到手,放大照片,讓大家都能清楚看到當中的細節。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">一根木柱躺在地上。目測長一尺有餘,乍看之下像是裝飾用的,頭尾兩端有折斷和被火燒過的痕跡。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「一根木頭……看來並沒有甚麼特別呢。」阿弘捋著鬍子作思考狀。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「它不屬於這個地方。」美音斬釘截鐵道。「看看木柱中間的神紋,應該是屬於某所神社的。這可能是神社屋頂的一角或樑柱的其中一截。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">不愧是考古學優等生,美音比拍攝這張照片的我看得更仔細。數年前為了完成畢業論文,美音有一段時間日以繼夜搜集神社建築演變的資料,對於近二、三十年建成或重建的神社尤其有印象,在座對於社寺建築的知識無人能出其右。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「神紋是神物呢。不要小看神物喔。」講到跟鬼神有關的話題,小光顯得興致勃勃。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我的疑問有二:屬於神社的神紋為何會出現在廢墟中,此其一;」美音像偵探劇集中的大偵探一般解釋著。「第二件令我在意的事,是神紋的來源。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「據我出發前做的調查,那邊附近方圓數里並沒有神社——除了一家已荒廢多年的廢神社。會不會是——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不會。」美音果斷地否定我提出的可能性。「這神紋的式樣很獨特,要是我沒記錯,是來自國內別處的。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是分社之類的?」一夫搔著頭,等待美音繼續講下去。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「也不是沒有這個可能,待我回去翻查資料,多半就能找出木柱上神紋的主人了。」美音豪氣地喝了一大口啤酒。「然而它為甚麼會出現在荒廢的辦公室裡頭呢?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「該不會是……」一夫吞一口口水。「有人在辦公室成為廢墟後,才把那附有神紋的木頭丟在那兒?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「雖然聽起來很荒謬,但這是目前唯一的解釋。可是為甚麼……甚麼人會做這種事呢?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">甚少發言的小光突然冷笑,低聲道:「只怕不是人類,而是鬼神所為吧!定然有某種神秘力量——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「又來了。」阿弘不客氣地打斷小光的發言。「妖魔鬼怪甚麼的不過是無知者的空想,科學才——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我覺得有古怪。」「我覺得古怪的是你。」二人各不相讓。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「踏進鬼神交鋒的領域還能全身而退,該說是道行夠高還是走運呢。你可沒有亂說話吧?」小光向我展現詭異的咧嘴笑,我連忙回答「沒有、沒有」。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「其實不少被稱為廢墟的地方,實際上是有人去打理的。」阿弘說話時眉頭微皺,看上去像個年過 40 的大叔。「有可能是區域保育人士、志願者,或者是居住在附近的居民——」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「肆意否定鬼神的話,鬼神可是會生氣的喔。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「喂,至少讓我把話說完啦。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「咦咦是誰在說話呢?我可不想跟褻瀆神靈的人沾上邊啦。」小光作勢躲在美音身後,個室內充滿了快活的空氣。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「阿純。」沉思了一會的美音開口,總算讓小光和阿弘暫時休戰。「這個地方讓我很在意。你可以給這照片——不,把所有在這間辦公室拍的照片都傳給我,可以嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「當然可以。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">關於我漁火別村之旅的話題結束,眾人轉而討論一夫月前到埃及拍攝的趣事,讓我鬆了一口氣。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">幸好美音剛才沒有提議前往漁火別村。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: x-large; font-weight: normal;">第四章 - 詛咒</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">薄雪連天地,銀華壓綠草。冬休復課後第一個星期,氣溫仍徘徊於全年低點。今天也是司空見慣的真冬日。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">校巴緩緩駛過集落牌坊,在一所平房門前停下。一名婦人從家中走出。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「謝謝大田先生。」校巴側門打開,一名身形嬌小、紮著小馬尾的小一女孩蹦跳而出。「媽媽!」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「祐里!」坂本星美輕抱女兒,又向著正在開走的校巴致謝。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「好冷喔,媽媽。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「嗯嗯,快入屋吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我回來了——媽媽媽媽,星期日我可以出去玩嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「出去玩?這種天氣還是留在家裡比較好不是嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那個……芽衣子同學邀請我去她家參加生日派對,就在星期日喔。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「還有阿希同學她都會去喔。我們是最最要好的朋友呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那很好呀,讓我先打電話給芽衣子媽媽說一聲吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「太好了!謝謝媽媽!祐里最喜歡和朋友們玩了!」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">坂本真司站在廚房洗手盆前,身旁有喝了半杯的燒酎。星美放輕腳步走下階梯,也來到了廚房。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「老婆,祐里她睡了嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「十分鐘前跟她講了床邊故事,應該睡了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「太好了。」真司嘆了一口氣。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「你還好嗎?怎麼今天看起來好像特別累?是工作太辛苦了嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不,其實……」真司閉上眼深呼吸,喝一口燒酎,連同口水吞下去。「有件事情想要跟你商量。有關於我們家的。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是,請說吧。」星美雙手溫柔地放在丈夫的握緊的手腕上。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「搬家吧。舉家搬離這裡,以後不要再回來。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「搬……家?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「對,愈快愈好。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「有必要這麼急嗎?畢竟一切才剛上軌道,祐里在學校也交到朋友呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「這……實在很難解釋清楚。」真司不安地擠弄著手指。「但你必須相信我,哪怕只是這一次。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">星美抬頭凝視著丈夫惶恐的雙瞳,然後從杯架拿出一隻玻璃杯,把丈夫杯裡的燒酎分一半給自己。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「親愛的,你知道嗎?自從你說要帶我去見你父母當天起,我已決定把一切都押在你身上了。搬家的事就聽你的吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「謝謝你。」夫婦二人把杯內的燒酎喝乾。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不過……如果可以的話,我還是想了解原因。雖然我未必明白,但我保證無論如何都相信你。」星美向真司投以信任的目光。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「好吧,畢竟你也有權利知道。聽好了——這裡被詛咒了。我們住的地方。整個區域。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「胡說的吧?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不,那是我親耳聽到的。連神社的人都這樣說,看來假不了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「說是詛咒……到底是怎麼樣的詛咒呢?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「死。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「死。」星美倒抽一口涼氣。事情比她估計的還要嚴重。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「而且已經有受害者……一個在家門口抽煙時遭到熊襲擊,失血過多致死。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「太可憐了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「另一個,喝完酒獨自回家的大叔。同樣是被熊襲擊,肚皮都被劃破了。還有村役場的中谷先生……」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是熊嗎……」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「可是現在是 2 月,2 月是熊冬眠的季節。在這種時候接二連三發生熊襲擊人的事件,不是很不尋常嗎?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我的想法跟你相同。」星美閉上眼,纖柔的雙手輕蓋口鼻,試圖壓抑心中的不安。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「你明白我在擔憂甚麼吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「有股超自然的力量在……下一個受害者可能是我們。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「嗯。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「聽你說得我也害怕起來了,還是早走為妙。就這樣決定吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「謝謝你的理解。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「在跟我客氣甚麼啦,關懷丈夫是妻子的責任呀。倒是在想該怎樣跟祐里講……」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「祐里還小,暫時別跟她提起任何跟詛咒或命案有關的事比較好。就說公司安排爸爸到別處工作,要舉家搬遷吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「沒有異議。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那麼接下來就是搬遷目的地……雖然萬二分不情願跟老爸打交道,但如今別無選擇,我就試著央求他讓我們回老家暫住吧。在青森的老家有兩間空房,基本生活設備和棉被等等都不缺,我國中時用過的書桌也可以給祐里用。你看怎樣?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「青森的老家……棒極了!『早上一起床就能從窗戶看到海』,我記得你這樣說過呢。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「是嗎?不經不覺住在山林圍繞的地方好幾年,差點都忘了海長甚麼樣子了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">二人被這句話逗笑了,繃緊的氣氛總算緩和了些。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「你知道嗎,祐里今天才問我周末可否參加朋友的生日派對。剛交到朋友馬上就要告別了,好可憐喔。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「雖然很可惜,但這也是沒有辦法的事呀。」真司洩氣地搔搔後腦勺。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「只希望祐里不會怪責爸爸媽媽咯。」星美邊說邊把燒酎杯洗淨。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「說實話,其實我挺喜歡這裡的。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「騙人的吧?你不是一直很討厭住在這種窮鄉僻壤嗎?怎麼忽然喜歡上了?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「起初的確不太習慣啦。四周除了樹木還是樹木,交通諸多不便又沒有好吃的餐廳。相比之下,從老家坐半個鐘頭鐵路就能到達市中心,實在方便多了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「那怎麼現在就習慣了呢?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「因為有你嘛。有你的地方就是好地方。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「胡說八道!」星美輕輕朝丈夫腰間打了一拳,臉上卻是不能自已的甜笑。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「總之明天早上如常讓祐里乘校巴上學,我打電話給老闆辭職,然後跟你一起收拾行李。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「待祐里下課回家再告訴她搬家的消息吧。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「嗯,雖然很殘酷,也只好這樣做了。我們一家的安全是最優先考慮。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「沒錯……」星美伸著懶腰打了個呵欠,夫婦倆一同回房間。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">坂本家一家三口吃過最後的早餐,整裝待發。由於收拾時間有限,加上老家不缺家具,因此決定只帶走衣服和個人物品,剛好放滿家庭車車尾、後座和中座的一半。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「這些就是全部了嗎?」剛打開副駕駛座車門的星美問道。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「就這樣……不,等等,閣樓的小提琴,差點忘了。」真司折返屋內。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「我和祐里先上車等你囉。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">到達青森老家時已接近晚上十點,祐里的祖父母在門前迎接。</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「呵呵,祐里醬,好久不見啦。阿嫲好想你喔。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「快把祐里帶進屋內,不要著涼啦。」祐里祖父命令著。「星美你也辛苦了。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「不不,是我要衷心感謝老爺你們的照顧才是。」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「喂,臭小子!」祐里祖父向著車子大喊。「快來幫忙啦,是不是要老婆一個人拿行李啦?」</span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">「老爺,真司他……他會稍後再來的。」星美用生硬的假笑把激動的情緒壓抑住。</span></h1>
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<b><span face="華康細圓體">推開閘門,迎面而來的是一襲帶有秋天專屬氣味的涼風。沙沙作響的樹葉哼起秋天的歌,在掉落前夕仍然驕傲地發出爽朗的歌聲。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span face="華康細圓體">「秋天終於來了」,類似的說話今年似乎已經聽過好幾次,可是一直只聞樓梯響,使得秋天愛好者們一次又一次失望而回。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span face="華康細圓體">說好的秋天較原定遲來,時至十一月底,氣溫仍在二十多度不上不下,埋藏在衣櫥深處的長袖厚衣,仍未得見天日。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span face="華康細圓體">要來的總會來到——只是時間問題吧。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<b><span face="華康細圓體">回想起二十年前的十一月,氣溫大概比今時今日低很多——那是小學生家長每天出門之前,都要致電天文台查詢氣溫,決定孩子能否穿著冬季校服上學的日子。今天的小學生已經沒有這種煩惱,說不定到了全體更換冬季校服的時候還會嫌熱呢。<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></b></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">正想現身之際,黎鎮偉的動作僵住了。他發現那個期待已久的人影背後,尚有另外一人的身影,一前一後而行。在微弱的光線下,隱約看到背後的人的臉。那是</span> <span lang="EN-US">5B </span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">班的班主任:雷仕琛老師。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">搞甚麼鬼?這人為何會在這裡出現?</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">木門關上,發出輕輕的碰聲,才把黎鎮偉從惶恐之中驚醒。蹲了好一段時間,黎鎮偉雙腿發麻無法站起,但這也無阻他用爬的,爬到鞍馬旁邊——剛才事發的地點——靠近約定的人。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">對不起,我……我沒能好好保護你,我沒盡好我的……責任。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">看著你受苦我卻只在一旁受驚……我真無用。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">我……不會讓這種事情再發生。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「嗨,陳</span><span lang="EN-US"> sir</span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「工作倒沒有出亂子,」黃</span><span lang="EN-US"> sir </span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">脫掉餘下的裝備,搔搔額角,向上司抱怨著。「只是那個新人……」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「不對,應該說是前來做實習的大學生。有個高高瘦瘦姓馬的,令我很頭痛。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「姓馬的?等我一下。」陳</span><span lang="EN-US"> sir </span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">案頭的文件分類清晰,很快就找到資料。「馬……馬作棟對吧?似乎是這一批實習生中累計學業成績最好的一位,天份應當不錯。莫非是不習慣實戰?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「正好相反。這小子做事很快就上手,態度還囂張得很呢。得給他看點顏色,挫挫他的銳氣。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「呵呵呵,有必要嗎?」陳</span><span lang="EN-US"> sir </span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">的笑聲之中帶著調侃的味道。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「我認為是有的。幹我們這一行,最重要做事細心,觀察入微。須知稍一不慎,丟失的就是一條人命呀。因醫療事故造成的醜聞實在可大可小,多年來辛苦經營的形象一下子就沒了。小傢伙剛踏入實習第三天就得意洋洋,對誰都沒有好處呀。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「這個……你說得對,有道理。」有關醫院形象的論點,似乎有打動到陳</span><span lang="EN-US"> sir</span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">。「但你打算怎樣做?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">左腳的鞋還未來得及脫好,馬作棟便衝進洗手間,對著馬桶盡情的嘔吐,臉色難看得像癮君子一般。馬太憂心忡忡地前去關注狀況,同時對次子呼喊:「均安快去吃飯!吃完再玩!飯菜都涼了。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">翌日,禮堂大台底下的儲物室,存放曲棍球棒的竹簍後。黎鎮偉戴上耳筒,耳筒播放儲存在</span><span lang="EN-US"> MP3 </span><span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">機的音樂,音樂多是節奏激昂的搖滾樂。這些吵鬧的音樂多少有定驚的作用——本來還打算買罐啤酒的,但考慮到自己還未成年,加上一旦被發現在校內喝酒,到時只會百口莫辯,唯有作罷。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span face=""新細明體" , serif" style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「無辜?真是笑話!要不是她的出現,雷仕琛怎會將原本屬於我的愛給抽走?只搞這些小把戲已經對你們十分寬容了。」盧倫斯理所當然的態度讓黎鎮偉很火大,但她看來毫不在意。「雖然你們的確間接幫了我一把,但一點小懲大戒總少不了。讓你們兩個背著殺人兇手和同黨的名字擔驚受怕一陣子也不錯嘛,就當作是為襲擊老師贖罪也未嘗不可,對不對?不過二十年又真的有點長,害我也開始對你們產生一點同情呢……」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這類型的慘劇,在這個城市裡時有發生。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">莫道醫護人員駕輕就熟,新聞報導員司空見慣,就連電視機前的大眾都日漸感到麻木。看到不認識的人遭逢不幸,一聲嘆息彷彿也是多餘。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">記者鏡頭下的死者前度男友,在用以遮面的公文袋下仍然可見其木訥的神情,配合無情的此起彼落的閃光燈,這位純粹到警署協助調查的良好市民,此刻看上去居然像個嫌疑犯,只差沒有頭罩和手扣。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">有人因為自己的行為和說話而走上絕路,在法律上未必需負刑責,但心裡難免感到不安。我不殺伯仁,伯仁為我而死,這種思緒,只有身歷其境的人才能意會。雷靖匡這位前度男友,大概正在細味這般滋味。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">把電視關掉,到露台把煙吸掉了半根,又復回到室中,軟攤在沙發上。看著自己在鏡頭前的窘態,實在不是一件過癮的事情。回想今天發生的事,再回想過去的點滴,很多很多片段在腦海如急流一般擦過,心中不禁犯愁——然而這種愁緒卻只徘徊於可惜,而未及悲傷。畢竟,對於那位已然逝去的,已經沒剩下甚麼感情。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">自從新聞媒體作出有關的報導,手機就一直響個不停,震個不停,閃個不停。囤積的成千上萬個未接來電和訊息當中,大概有很多都是到老死不相往來的無聊人。靖匡自懶得應酬這些人,只想享受片刻的寧靜,哪怕只是一瞬。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">來電的人是關心,是八卦,是指謫,是安慰還是其他,靖匡都不感興趣。回想起昨晚的情景和對話,他努力地嘗試找出一語成懺的那句話,那句言者無心,聽起來無關痛癢的話。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">過了很短的時間,靖匡便找到填補情侶一欄空檔的人。這算不上不合理,因事實上他對前度早已沒有感情,若非有人不顧面子死纏爛打——嗯,人死已矣,批評的話還是少說為妙。總言之,在前度過世兩個多星期後,靖匡就有了新的伴侶,徐幗湘。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">雖然那宗命案發生的地點不在他的家中,但靖匡還是穩字行頭,等到命案發生後的第五十天,也就是前度尾七歸魂之後,才迎接幗湘到家同住——這多少受到家母迷信的思想影響。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">相傳人死後經過七七四十九天就會回到地府,不再留戀人間往事。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">幗湘搬進來住以後,兩人得以朝夕相對,關係變得更加密切。搬進來的第一天,兩人為了搬運家當,勞累得筋疲力盡。晚上雙雙躺在床上卻都不願睡去,結果還是促膝談心,渡過了整個漫漫長夜。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">接著的那天的晚上,靖匡做了一個夢。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">他走在一個奇異的空間,四週是閃爍交錯的螢光粉紅和螢光黃,外加一點又一點白光若隱若現,卻不甚刺眼。沒有牆壁,沒有陸地,杳無邊際,卻能如常走動。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這是靖匡第一次來到這地方。從未在以前的夢境出現過如此的場景。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">正當靖匡感到大惑不解,一把氣若游絲的聲線在他身後響起:「很…很痛…救我…」他想也不想,立即回過頭看,可是甚麼都看不見。聲音的確是由身後傳來,但遑論有人,就連鬼影都沒有。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">他深呼吸一下,繼續往前走,不出幾步,又感覺到在他的背後,有隻手掌輕輕的拍著他的肩頭,像是在提醒他遺下了甚麼。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">靖匡毫無防備的回頭,就看到了極其可怕的東西!</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">那大概是一個人。用「大概」,是因為實在和平常的人類相去甚遠——它的臉像蜂巢般千瘡百孔,彷佛經歷過甚麼重擊,扭曲得難以形容。面門上的凹陷處,大得深得可放進一個拳頭,打通了眼鼻口之間的間隔,根本無法判斷它是在笑還是在哭。血水混和不知名的體液,肆無忌憚,源源不絕的湧出,雙手的骨頭不難看出已斷成了好幾節,全身沒有一處沒給鮮血所覆蓋——如此可怖的情景,絕對是靖匡有生以來從來目睹,也從未想像過的。他驚得大呼一聲,毫無保留地宣洩著恐懼,聲嘶力竭,雙腿一軟,坐倒在地上,怯懦地節節退後。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">面前那彷似人類的東西,隨著奇異的空間一同慢慢縮小,直至在他的眼前消失。他環顧四週,是一片的寂靜,是他的睡房,是被驚醒的幗湘。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「做噩夢了嗎?」幗湘懇切的問道。靖匡急促地點頭,汗珠隨即揮灑而下。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">她輕柔地纏在靖匡的腰間,安慰道:「親愛的,別怕,我在這兒。」</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">剛才那極度恐怖的情景仍然歷歷在目。靖匡張開雙臂,狠狠的把幗湘抱住,像是遇溺者拚死抓住救生圈一般。幗湘好不容易才騰出一隻手,亮起了几子上的熔岩燈,調到柔和的黃光,又稍為推開靖匡,製造一點距離,使他能夠清楚的看到自己。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">二</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">也許是近來工作壓力過大,也許是日間過度勞累,也許是其他看似不著邊際的原因——靖匡想出了十多個理由,試圖解釋昨晚那個噩夢出現的原因,卻沒得出甚麼結論。那個恐怖的夢境,那個令人不寒而慄的畫面,給了靖匡一記重重的震懾。幗湘花了半天,不斷想法子安撫他,告訴他「那不過是夢境」,才令靖匡的情緒稍為平伏。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這晚兩人依舊大被同眠。靖匡心中還有點惆悵,害怕昨晚的噩夢重臨。身為枕邊人的幗湘自然都看在眼裡。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「來,手給我。」幗湘說道。「我們就這樣手牽手一同進睡,睡醒前誰也不准放開手喔。無論你遇到怎麼樣的妖魔鬼怪都不用怕——有幗湘老師在,誰都不敢欺負我的靖匡寶貝。」聽了這話,靖匡不禁傻乎乎地笑了起來。他的心情相當複雜,既有點無可奈何,又感到甜蜜,還有一絲歉意。幗湘是個幼稚園教師,此刻她竟把自己當作幼童般照料,實在是哭笑不得;甜蜜是因為感受到幗湘對自己無微不至的關心;而要她為了自己區區一個噩夢而費心思,也令靖匡心生歉意。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">在熔岩燈預設的紅光映照之下,二人四目交投。幗湘的眼神,真摯之中帶一點神秘感。靖匡凝視著幗湘深邃的眼眸,看見了自己,也看到深鎖在她瞳仁中,更無盡的未知地帶。他抽一口氣,決意要更深入地探索她的秘密……</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">懷著備戰的心態,走了數步,他隨即感覺到左手有被捏住的感覺——這自然是因為和幗湘手牽手的緣故。想到這裡,靖匡感到安全多了,自信沒有甚麼能夠把他嚇到。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">翠瑩一身冬日衣著,黑白灰的色調是她生前最愛的搭配。和靖匡相對而立,約莫有一米的距離。她對靖匡微笑,氣質從眉宇之間散發,曾幾何時熟悉的神情,靖匡卻有陌生的感覺。在他的印象中,上一次看到翠瑩的笑臉,已是很久以前的事了。如今在這奇詭的空間重遇她,配上久違的微笑,使整件事情披上了詭異的外皮。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「你當然好,我可慘得很啦,這裡很寒冷,很寒冷…」未待靖匡回答,翠瑩便逕自打斷。「你有想念我嗎?」</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「他媽的,我怎麼能問得出這句話。」翠瑩再度打斷,而且笑容漸漸變得陰森。「我離開後你甚至連一根香燭都沒燃過,又怎會想起我?哈哈…」她陡地揚起手掌,掌心面向著靖匡,幾處自殘造成的刀傷清晰可見。血不住自創口滲出,轉眼間整隻手掌都披滿了血絲。翠瑩的微笑演化成一陣笑聲,可是卻愈笑愈苦,令人根本分不清她是在笑,還是在嚎哭。</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">靖匡吃了一驚,又感到左手被捏住的感覺更強烈,乍看之下,發現左腕被一條若隱若現的銀器鎖住——那是一條項鏈,是某年他送給翠瑩的生日禮物。他一抬頭,只見翠瑩手掌上的血跡,像倒帶一般,逐漸走回創口內。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「這陣子發生的事令我好害怕。」幗湘躲進靖匡的懷抱中。「先是你的連環惡夢,然後門鎖壞掉,水管破掉,我又患上重病,還有大大小小的怪事…我覺得好心寒呢。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「親愛的,我就在這裡,別怕。」靖匡把她緊緊抱住。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「我在想…我想我有點受夠了的感覺。」幗湘輕輕的推開靖匡。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「別胡說,我從來沒這樣想過。如果有甚麼方法能夠解決目前困境的話,無論如何我都會嘗試。可惜就是沒有…」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「如果我說有方法呢?」幗湘的語氣帶點挑戰。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「是呀,我中午醒來感到身子無恙,便想起渡蘭大師數日前的話。我知道你為了公務忙得不可開交,又要為了我的健康而煩惱,所以便自行前去找渡蘭大師,這樣你便不用奔波勞碌了。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「沒錯,這就是渡蘭大師提到,能幫助我們解開困境的法寶。他說只要把這顆明珠放到適當的位置,就能使冤魂煙消雲散,再也不會纏繞著我們了。」幗湘比一比几子上的熔岩燈。「大師說,全屋最適合的地方,就在那枝燈旁邊。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「殘忍?」幗湘的臉部表情明示著難以置信。「你那位前度女友如此折磨我倆,這不是更殘忍嗎?」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「她已經死了!她一個死人在折磨我們兩個活人。活人會感到痛感到害怕,死人不會!不把它幹掉的話,我們永遠不會過到正常的生活!」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「我有方法…我有方法!相信我,我會設法使她的怨恨逐步減少,再過些日子,她自然就會離開,不會再煩著我們啦。」靖匡試圖使幗湘改變主意。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">幗湘反唇相譏:「使她怨恨減少?在初一、十五要給她上香嗎?還是在情人節買一束花燒給她?你們拍拖</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> N </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">週年紀…」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">幗湘深深地吸一口氣,嘗試抑壓著波動的情緒:「請搞清楚一點,我才是你的女友,我才是你需要關心和照料的人。你處處維護著你那位陰魂不散的前度女友,忽視我的恐懼和不安,這樣說得過去嗎?」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「那是你的前度,干我何事?我可是無辜的!我這些日子受了多少煎熬,都是拜你的前度所賜,難道你不了解嗎?」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這個夜上顯得特別寧靜,也特別長。睡不著覺的靖匡和幗湘誰都不比誰好過。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">換了是平時,他們兩個之中總有一個會不計前嫌,放下無謂的面子問題,主動去哄對方,爭拗鮮有超過十五分鐘的。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">靖匡雙手枕在後腦,逐格逐格的回憶起從前跟翠瑩在一起時的片段。九年來,幾多風風雨雨走過,幾多良辰美景享受過。在這三千天左右的歲月,兩個人之間的爭執不計其數,但都很快便解決掉。他特別記得翠瑩說過的一句話:「不要因為一時的衝動和氣上心頭,而斷送了一生的幸福。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這話固然說得對,但又有多少人能夠辦到?就是連翠瑩自己都不行——想到這裡,靖匡不由自主的歎了一口氣,不知是替翠瑩,還是替九年感情的逝去感到可惜。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">其實翠瑩已經遠去,自己也有了幗湘這位感情穩定的新歡,這是靖匡心裡明白的事。幗湘對自己實在好得很,也付出了很多,倘若自己仍然沉溺於舊事,的確是對幗湘十分不公平。但,如要跟隨她的意思,設法消滅翠瑩的冤魂,卻是萬萬不可。無論翠瑩如何可惡,但也罪不致死,何況她已經死了一次…</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">想起正在冷戰的幗湘,靖匡雖然心中有氣,但心想總不能把她放著不管。正打算轉過頭去看看她,卻發覺靠牆的半邊大床空空如也,哪裡有幗湘的蹤影?正當靖匡感到疑惑之際,又從門縫中看到客廳的燈正亮著——靖匡想,大概是剛才想得出神,以致幗湘跨過自己走出房間也不知情。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「我想怎樣?倒不如先說說你想怎樣吧!」幗湘霍地站起,雖然身高不及靖匡,卻有一種教人不敢侵犯的氣勢。「你家裡鬧鬼搞得你睡不好,是誰來安撫你、照料你?我知道你工作繁重,所以我剛剛康復就跑去找大師借治鬼的法寶,誰知你毫不領情,還罵我殘忍,處處維護那隻惡鬼!你剛才不是說『如果有方法解決目前困境的話,無論如何都會嘗試』嗎?怎麼不夠三分鐘就反口?我病得半死你也不做點事,卻又來阻止我抽幾根煙!雷靖匡,你到底想怎樣?」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「不過?不過也想你那位舊情人好,對不對?我知道,你一直想要一個看起來兩全其美的方法,既不傷害她,又不會要我受苦。可是我告訴你,所謂兩全其美的方法並不存在!因為在你這樣想的時候,已經犧牲了我,要我為你的優柔寡斷而吃苦!不要再自欺欺人說你不想傷害任何人了,你只是想自己心裡過得舒服,然後掩耳盜鈴裝作沒事發生!」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「站成這個模樣,不怕掉到街上去嗎?哈哈哈!」靖匡腦內傳來翠瑩的聲音,她的身影也隨之出現在靖匡的旁邊。「還好是你,換了是那個惡毒心腸的女人,我早就把她推下樓去了。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">翠瑩繼續道:「你今早給我上那些香的味道怪怪的…下次我不要這種。不過你送的花很合我心意,我愛死它們了,謝謝你。」</span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「雷靖匡,你省點用吧,我不吃這套的。」翠瑩的臉色變得有點難看。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">「怨念解除了,也就是時候走了,你去問那個甚麼難度大師也會得到這個答案。」翠瑩的身影漸變透明。「哎呀,忘了告訴你,你的愛人吶,她一直沒睡,你快去哄她睡覺吧。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這下突然的變故,靖匡始料不及。眼前的境物開始扭曲,他感到兩眼昏花,天旋地轉,頭痛欲裂,雙腿也失去支撐身體的能力,耳邊依稀聽到一串笑聲…</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">拿起電話想要聯絡幗湘,卻發現了數個未接來電,和顯示著</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">15:16</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">的時鐘。未接來電當中有五個是公司電話,一個是老板的手機,還有一個匿名來電。靖匡額角滲著冷汗,心知這次麻煩實在不少,但當下只想找到幗湘。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">電話撥出了,卻接不通——聽筒裡機械的聲音告訴靖匡該電話號碼已停止服務。無論靖匡再撥多少次,也只得到這個麻木不仁的回應。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">無故曠工,愛人遠走,一份無助的感覺重重地壓在靖匡身上,想要抽根煙減減壓,又想起自己昨晚把煙丟到街裡去。自作自受。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">這篇小說原本想叫《悼念已離開的》,可是之後因為不喜歡而否決,經過一點思索,就換成了如今的名字:死角。提到死角,立即就聯想到好幾種事物:足球術語「死角入網」——皮球直飛球門死角,守門員奮力飛撲也是鞭長莫及;人遭逢進退兩難,無計可施的困境,可以說成「被迫到了死角」;死角也指盲點,一些力量涵蓋範圍以外的漏網之魚;也可能有其他的意義。至於本篇名為《死角》的意義為何,還是留給讀者們細想。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">關於小說標題這回事,說到底我還是有一點堅持,那就是不</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">CHOK</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">(裝模作樣)。如果我要</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">CHOK</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">的話,這篇小說大可以叫《那年那天,我那死去的前度女友竟然回來尋仇!》,或《</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">2013</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">破天荒人神鬼仙境人間大混戰》諸如此類。可是我就是不屑做標題黨,也相信吸引人的內容都在字裡行間,而不僅僅在標題上。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">在寫《死角》的同時,我也在寫另一篇小說,也用了僅僅兩個字作標題,滿有詩意的,我很喜歡。</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">說好的那篇正在寫的小說到目前為止仍處於冰封階段,大概可宣告胎死腹中了。本來以為有周詳的計劃便能一步步寫出好作品,事實卻是相反。有人說寫作不是要指示角色去做這做那,而是細心了解他們的性格和心情,為他們鋪設理想場地,讓他們說想說的話,做想做的事。我想大概就是這個意思。</span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-23703747165130040422014-12-15T00:05:00.000+08:002015-05-01T22:38:53.026+08:00《脫韁》<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">——「</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 12pt;">過去一直都是這樣做</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">」</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 12pt;">,是最失敗、最窩囊的人才會說出的話!</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">阿釗這個人有著多重身份。他是我的好朋友、童年玩伴、小學同學和大學同學,經歷了近二十年的友誼,說我和他是好兄弟,絕不為過。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">兄弟<span lang="EN-US">——</span>我們也真的快要成為兄弟了。皆因我的女朋友阿雯,正是阿釗的親妹子。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">阿雯比阿釗小一歲,和阿釗一樣,也是和我從小玩到大的知己良朋,而我和她的關係就是四個字:青梅竹馬。我倆在初中已開始拍拖,至今好像已經有十二、三年。在這段接近人生一半的時間內,我倆的相處算是不錯,並沒有像很多情侶一樣把吵架當家常便飯,也沒有三兩天就嚷著要分手的煩惱,一切都四平八穩,平和有致,就像要好的朋友一樣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">有人說,我和阿雯的感情美滿得羨剎旁人,在這個感情易來易去的世代,我倆算是對模範情侶;有人說,這段根本不是感情,是一段童話故事,我和阿雯不是普通情侶,是王子與公主。也有人曾質疑過這麼長時間的感情,會不會已經變淡甚至變質。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">最後一個說法明顯是不對的。要是雙方已經沒有感情,又如何能夠相守十多年呢?何況去年阿雯大學畢業,我倆一起到歐洲旅遊;在雙方父母的同意下,半年前還開展了同居生活,足見感情何等深厚。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">下班。在擁擠的公車上,接到老朋友阿釗的電話。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">老友隔著聽筒相會,自不免寒喧幾句。阿釗問我「近來在忙甚麼」,我幾乎想都沒想,就回答說「忙著寫小說」。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「寫小說?哈哈,你嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當然呀,不是我,難道是你?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「怎麼了,大文豪,大作完成後打算出書還是拍成電影?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「都不是。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「那還寫來幹嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「就是喜歡寫呀。」我沒告訴他這是為了參加比賽,因為我已經猜到他的反應<span lang="EN-US">——</span>獎金是多少?會有人賞識你為你出書嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「有時你真的讓我搞不懂。老是幹著一些沒回報的<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「寫作是我的興趣,滿足興趣就是<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「好好好,你是想說『滿足興趣就是你的回報』吧。這句話我聽過太多次,都會背了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我沒好氣地悶哼一聲。阿釗大概從我的語氣中聽出我的不滿,便沒再在這話題上糾纏下去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「明晚有空一起晚飯嗎?」寄來訊息的是羅珊,她是我喜歡的人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">看著這不到十個字的訊息,心中居然有種難以言喻的甜蜜感覺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">羅珊是我喜歡的人,但不是我的女朋友。我的女朋友另有其人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">可是我的女朋友卻不是我喜歡的人。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">一旦焦急起來,人便會失去冷靜分析的能力,面對本來難度不高的工作,也會顯得手忙腳亂甚至犯下低級錯誤。沒有冷靜的頭腦,就無法好好進行思考,要構想新的點子霎時間變得難上加難。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">清脆的敲門聲響了數遍,阿雯探頭進來。我對她有氣無力地揮手。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「忙嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不忙,只是漫無目的地上網消磨時間罷了。近來工作有點繁重,工餘時間需要放鬆一下。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「是這樣嗎,」從阿雯疲乏的聲線,我知道她正準備去睡。「那要好好休息一下了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我對她點點頭,她隨即從門縫中閃走。我並沒有告訴她有關小說的事,因為她不會明白背後的意義。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">阿釗和阿雯兩兄妹的性格和價值觀都很相近,包括好和壞的方面。好的是自從認識至今差不多二十年來,他們一直以真誠待我,有好事總會留我一份,無怪乎一個是我好朋友,一個是我女朋友。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">至於壞的方面,就是他們兩人實際上都不太明白我。從前每逢跟他們談志向,談理想,猶如對牛彈琴,最後還是碰得一鼻子灰。客觀點說,這不是我們之間誰的錯,只是大家對於「理想」的看法不同而已。我從不會當著他們的面說他們是沒理想的庸才,但我想即使說了,他們大概也不會感到有甚麼冒犯之處。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">即使特地提早十分鐘到達約會地點,羅珊還是比我早到。附近一間頗有格調的西餐廳是今晚共晉晚餐的地點。晚餐過後意猶未盡,捨不得太早讓約會完結的我倆,決定到附近的山路上走一圈散散心。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你和你女朋友拍拖有多久了?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「大約<span lang="EN-US">……</span>十二年吧。不,好像是十三年,讓我數數看<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「總之就是很長時間了吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「對,沒錯,很長時間了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「有想過結婚嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「結婚嗎?」我像在背誦標準答案一般。「當然有想過,有的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「但你似乎並不想。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你懂甚麼。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">一陣沉默。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">那句「你懂甚麼」,我想都沒想,就如反射動作般說了出口。每次有人嘗試質疑我和阿雯的感情,我都會如此反駁。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我看得出,不是瞎猜的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「隨你喜歡。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你不愛你女朋友。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「神經病。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「要是真的愛她,你又怎麼會<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「閉嘴。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你不愛聽,我就不說好了。但我不說,其他人不說,並不代表問題不存在。這點你最好記住。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我發現,」我瞪了她一眼。「你這個人也挺難纏的。一直喋喋不休,沒完沒了!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「要不煩很容易,」她的後腦勺枕在交叉的雙臂上。「關上房門,躲進被窩,矇起雙眼,蓋著耳朵,裝作甚麼都沒發生<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「就像社會上被稱為『大眾』那一班人一樣。」一個生硬的停頓過後,她作結道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我也一樣嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你也一樣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「胡說!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「怎麼了,藝術家大人?被指和普羅大眾沒有分別,感到被侮辱是吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我悶哼一聲,不置可否。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你有作為藝術家的志向,在思想上走得很前,可是行為卻和思想不甚相符。雖然未至於言行不一,但<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你說夠了沒有?」我壓抑不住心中的怒意。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你不想聽,我不講。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「對<span lang="EN-US">……</span>對不起。請繼續吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「無論是從你寫的文字中,還是散發自你身邊的氣場,都教我感到你是與別不同的。單單是這種與別不同的感覺,已經令我非常的喜歡你。然而每當講到你的感情事,你卻忽然變得保守,彷彿變了另外一個人。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「真的嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你害怕面對。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「都這麼多年,要面對的都已面對了,現在四平八穩的,沒有甚麼好害怕。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「就是因為四平八穩,才令你感到害怕,你害怕面對轉變。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「笑話,誰會想天天面對轉變?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「因為害怕轉變,所以就要對不如意、不喜歡的一切都一一啞忍了嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這不是你的作風吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我的事<span lang="EN-US">……</span>你又知道幾多。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「老實說,不算多。不過憑著猜測,再觀看你的反應,我想距離事實不遠。」羅珊說這句話時顯得很自信。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你有談過戀愛吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當然有。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我指的是認真的戀愛。不是兩小無猜,也不是只求開心不求戀愛感的那種。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「有呀。現今社會容許自由戀愛,大概沒有人未認真的愛過吧,哪怕只是一次。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「是嗎?那麼我可能是從古代來的。告訴你,我沒有真正的談過戀愛。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我<span lang="EN-US">……</span>我理解。真的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「謝謝,」我重重地嘆了一口氣。「這些話我從來沒有對其他人提起過。你說得無錯,我是在逃避。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「終於承認了呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「沒辦法,因為身邊實在太多情海翻波的例子,所以才不斷提醒自己,一切很好,不要胡思亂想杞人憂天。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這麼說來,我可是令你開始亂想的人了,罪名還算不小呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不,不關你的事。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我是第一個看透你心事的人嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我側著頭想了一下,轉過頭,瞪著她道:「不。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我不信。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我沒有騙你。心事是我主動告訴你的,何來甚麼看透?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「哈!」她脫口一笑,短促的笑聲中,滲透出一點出乎意料。「你這個人耍起無賴上來也算得是個專家。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不喜歡嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不喜歡你無賴,但喜歡你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我有問你是否喜歡我嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「難道你沒問,我就不能表態嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我再次被她擠得答不上話。已忘記了是今晚的第幾次,但我絲毫沒有厭惡的感覺,相反的,還覺得這種被欺負的感覺很新鮮。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">成功擊倒我以後,她點到即止,和我一起享受當下帶點甜蜜的尷尬。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你喜歡我甚麼,我真的摸不著頭腦。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「喜歡是沒有原因的。」羅珊一本正經地回答道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「別用這種話來敷衍我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你先答我,答案能令我滿意的話我再答你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「那<span lang="EN-US">……</span>和你相處的時候,我可以放輕鬆,不必顧慮甚麼,這讓我感覺很舒服。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「真的嗎?」她看起來有點興奮,至少那片笑容不像是裝出來的。「但是我覺得你對我還是有所保留,不是嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你也得給我一點時間吧。至少我正在嘗試對我自己的內心坦白。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「早就該這樣呀。要是你一早懂得對自己內心有交待,今時今日就不必承受這感情的壓力了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這不公平。要一下子推翻過去十多年一直在做的事,對任何人未說都不容易吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「嘿嘿,你可知道,」她自信滿滿地輕撥髮鬢,外帶一點自負。「『過去一直都是這樣做』,是最失敗、最窩囊的人才會說出的話!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「很看不起我這個失敗者吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「與其說別人看不起你,不如問問自己有沒有給機會別人去看得起你吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">透過車窗,我望向近乎漆黑的夜空,思考著這句說話的意思。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我不是不再改變,而是不知怎樣開始。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「想改變就坐言起行,想得太多反而不好。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我身上有太多枷鎖,太多顧累,而且那不是單單一件獨立的事,牽一髮即動全身。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「藉口。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你根本不明白。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你這白痴,你才不明白。我來問你,如果你要跟女朋友分手,她卻嚷著要生要死,你會怎樣做?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「假設性問題就給假設性答案,也總比放棄思考好,不是嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「從來沒想過,對不對?但這就是現實社會,每天都可能有意想不到的事突然殺出,不容你有考慮的空間。而你慢慢就會知道,所謂『兩全其美』根本只是欺騙小孩的把戲。做出任何決定都會有得有失,分別只是多與少。最差的做法是猶疑不決,這樣幾乎只有失,沒有得。」</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「好了,如果我離開<span lang="EN-US">——</span>我是說,假使我離開了她,我將要面臨翻天覆地的變化,我不肯定自己是否能適應。」<span lang="EN-US"><br />
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「放在你家……嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「先放在我家吧,不然當你父母看到你突然搬回去住,到時問這問那,只會增添你的煩惱。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你倒是想得周到呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「身為你未來的女人,當然要為你設想周到吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「哈哈<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」我沒好氣地乾笑幾聲,心想這女人真是十分狡猾。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「那你現在有甚麼打算?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「先回去睡一睡,好好想一想應該怎樣啟齒,之後怎樣跟其他人交待。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「回去哪裡?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當然是回家呀。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「還回去作甚?今晚來我家。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">駕駛座上的她專心一致,掌控著這輛以良好性能見稱,被譽為「魔獸」的跑車,晃過一道道急彎,車速儀表上的指針徘徊在<span lang="EN-US"> 120 </span>公里左近。平時很少坐快車的我不禁有種透不過氣的感覺,可是為了不在她面前顯出窘迫的樣子,我很努力裝出若無其事,漫不經心地看著窗外夜景的姿態。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「平時我都開<span lang="EN-US"> 140 </span>的。」她輕輕地道,目光沒有離開路面。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「謝謝你體諒我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不是體諒你,是我不敢開太快。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「但你平時<span lang="EN-US">——</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「平時就只有我一個人。今天旁邊多了個人,而且還是我的男人,我會緊張。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">你<span lang="EN-US">——</span>我只說了一個「你」字,便被她打斷話頭。她一本正經地道:「你知道跟駕駛中的司機談話是件很危險的事吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「跟你說笑而已,」她笑說。「不過緊張倒是真的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這車平時只有你一個人用嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當然呀,這又不是計程車。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「嗯<span lang="EN-US">……</span>我只是很奇怪,一個嬌滴滴的女孩,為何會駕這種跑車。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「別人給的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「是。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「真富有,當別人還在送花送首飾,他已經送車了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不是他送我,是我要的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「甚麼?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「有一次他跟別的女人纏上,卻被我撞破,我當晚就提出分手。那傢伙在模特兒界算是薄有名氣,當時他又驚又怕,怕的不是失去我,而是怕我會把事情鬧大,敗壞他在行內的聲譽。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「那你怎辦?有把他痛罵一番嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「沒有。我很冷靜,冷靜到有點可怕。我看著他那徬惶無助的眼神,窩囊的態勢,只覺得可悲。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「慢著,這跟這台跑車有甚麼關係?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「他說只要不把這件事張揚出去,他甚麼都可以為我做。我便要他把這台跑車讓給我,然後我和他以後各不相干。他稍為猶疑了一下,但最後也答應了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「區區一台跑車,對有錢人來說不算甚麼吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「他不算有錢,買車的錢還得一分一毫儲下來才負擔得起。曾幾何時我很天真,以為除了我之外,這車子就是他的第二最愛。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這算是復仇嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你恨他嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當時還是有恨的,不過既然無可挽回,恨也沒意思,所以很快就淡忘了。不是你問起,我也不會回想。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「真對不起,害你勾起不快的回憶。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不知者不罪,而且我已經放下了。」車在山腳一盞交通燈下停著。「更何況,與其為過去無法刪改的事而煩惱,倒不如好好享受現在這一刻,對不?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">她把臉湊過來,半開半合的雙眼倍感撩人,吻下去,那片短唇比想象中更加軟綿綿,如果沒有唇膏從中作梗,大概會吻得更盡情。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">電話鈴聲震碎了美好的睡眠。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「喂……」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「喂!整晚不見人,又出去玩了吧?」聽筒傳來阿釗的聲線。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「真是的,至少該打個電話通知一下吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不<span lang="EN-US">……</span>不好意思,我似乎是喝醉了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你這傢伙總是這樣。對了,今晚在我家後園有燒烤聚會,你沒有忘記吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">阿釗繼續自顧自的說著:「你待會回到家再打個電話給我,待阿雯從禮拜堂回來,我們再一起去準備食物和飲料,順道也買些水果吧。對了,噴火槍的氣體用光了,待會也要去買<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「好、好,電話的電池快耗盡了,待會再找你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我已經盡量把聲線壓得很低,然而還是把羅珊吵醒了。睡眼惺忪的她對著我微笑,半睡半醒的樣子看起來亦有幾分可愛。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「別人的家庭聚會嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「聽筒的聲音那麼大,聽不見才怪。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「噢<span lang="EN-US">……</span>原來如此,原來如此。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「似乎現在就要離開?要我送你走嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」我心中此刻舉棋不定,只能支支吾吾地說出句不成句的話。我想,要跟阿雯訣別的話,必定要單對單,不能有第三者在場引起不必要的麻煩,偏偏今日卻有團體活動,換言之今日不會是說分手的好日子。可是我亦知道不能再拖<span lang="EN-US">——</span>我自己的性格我最清楚,要是和阿雯稍為多見一會,定必心軟,甚麼分手之類的說話多半說不出口。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「我不知道應該怎樣做<span lang="EN-US">……</span>實在不知道<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「不知道甚麼?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我坐在床邊,把我的顧慮如實告訴羅珊,卻換來一句:「如果你還是因為怕麻煩而繼續迴避問題的話,那就請回吧,就當我愛錯了你,也當我昨晚跟你說的全是廢話。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「昨晚聽你一席話,我的確想通了很多,謝謝你。可是假使我和女朋友分開,很有可能連帶影響我和阿釗的友誼,要知道他是我最重要的朋友呀!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「你說阿釗是你最重要的朋友,對嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「當然!我和他從小時候已是要好的朋友。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「那麼作為好友,他懂你嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「這個<span lang="EN-US">……</span>他不算太了解我,但即使對事物取態不同,我們的相處也充滿歡樂。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「要歡樂很容易,現代社會娛樂十分廉價,一班酒肉朋友聚首已能令你玩個樂而忘返。可是作為身邊的人,尤其是好朋友、伴侶,不應只限於一起作樂,而是要在心靈上有所交流。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「心靈上有所交流<span lang="EN-US">……</span>」我自言自語地重覆著這句話。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「就像我,雖然跟你認識不算久,但我敢說我真的懂你。至少我會理解、會欣賞你對寫作的堅持,了解你性格上的弱點,更希望幫助你把這些弱點改正過來,成為更加堅強的人。沒錯,我承認我的確有私心,想將你據為己有,但這點和我所說的並沒有衝突。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「謝謝你,你對我真好。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「別對我道謝,要是真的感謝我,就拿出面對改變的勇氣吧。」羅珊頓了一頓。「再講,如果阿釗也珍惜你這個老朋友,斷不會單純因為你和他妹妹分手就和你斷絕關係!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「要是他真的這樣做的話,就當花了二十年看清他的為人吧。不過你也不必過份擔心,因為你還有我作為你的後盾,我會一直支持你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「趁阿雯不在家,你立即回去收拾行裝,愈快愈好,然後趕快離開<span lang="EN-US">……</span>跟阿雯解釋的工作我會做,你以後<span lang="EN-US">……</span>以後不要再找她。」從阿釗哽咽的聲線,我知道他此刻心情非常複雜。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">「去吧。廢話不必多講,這是我作為兄弟……為你做的最……最後一件事。」</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">阿釗的態度再明白不過,我以前最忌憚的境況終究還是出現,然而這時在我的心頭卻有放下大石的感覺。大多數的恐懼產生自「不知道它會不會發生」,當事情真的發生了,反而沒有甚麼好怕。羅珊預言「就當花了二十年看清他的為人」如實上演,令我驀然驚覺自己在老朋友心中的地位,不過如此。縱有失望,幸而一切都已成過去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">回到父母家中,約略交待和阿雯分開的決定後,老人家臉上的疑惑便消去大半。我說應該會暫時搬回來住,他們都顯得異常高興<span lang="EN-US">——</span>上一次看到那種由心而發的笑臉,是我大學畢業典禮那天。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我有跟她在一起了嗎?沒有。正確的說法,是當天從她的家離開以後,我便沒有再找她。我從不否定我喜歡她,她也喜歡我更欣賞我的事實。可是現下的我更需要完全屬於自己的空間,在感情路上稍作休息,再三想清楚自己需要的是甚麼,對愛情到底有甚麼期望,諸如此類。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這種女人怎樣看都不像是正經人家</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「對了,有其母必有其女</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,我相信她對阿文是真心的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不管真情還是假意,麻煩始終是事實</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「為甚麼就不能給她一個機會呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">頭痛欲裂。眼前的桌子,桌子上果盤裡的水果,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,阿卓,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,天花板,地板,慢慢開始旋轉</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可是,可是我明明就沒喝過酒。想叫眾人暫時別說話,變本加勵的痛楚卻使我始終吐不出半個字。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我才不會選這種女人做女友</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別人怎樣選女友關你屁事</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「阿文是我好朋友,好兄弟,怎會不關我事</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不知她會不會偷偷和其他男人密會</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「她喜歡的是你,這點根本不需要懷疑</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只要是相愛,背景好壞又有甚麼關係呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">背上,後頸,手心,膝背,汗水滲出,不受控制地。我只想靜一下。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「找天過來跟我吃午飯,我給你介紹市場部的女</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「他和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">才是注定的一對,要怎</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「再觀察一段時間比較好,不要倉促</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「要是喜歡就去吧,別理</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那不是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「快點,快點!不然就趕不及了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">閉嘴!通通給我閉嘴!你、你、你、你,還有你</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">讓我冷靜,不要吵我!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。還有阿卓和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">搞不清楚這是甚麼地方,為何忽然會身處這裡,室友們為何突然出現在眼前,吃驚甚鉅的我,甚至找不到支撐起身體的氣力。徐徐向我步近的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">卻從容不迫,單膝跪在跟前,輕輕的以雙手包裹住我的右手,眼神中帶有幾分憐惜。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">終於開口答話。奇怪的是,縱使我看到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的嘴唇在動,也能聽到她的話語,但聲音與畫面卻有著明顯的時間差,情況就如看聲畫不同步的電影那樣。她的聲音道:「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">甚麼的,只是一個名字,不重要的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我看著兩位男士,阿卓還是</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">威武之中帶點魯鈍的樣子,而</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> H </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">也是平時的一派胸有成竹。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,沒有我們。只有你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看著茫然的我道。「我是你追求藝術的一面。過去我離你太遠,給了你很多麻煩,我現在回來了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「世上從來沒有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,沒有文麗清這個人存在,你現在眼前的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">即是我,是你分裂出來的一個部份,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">先後指著阿卓和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。「這個是運動,這個是文采,都是你的。現在你懂了嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「乖,總有一天你會明白。現實還是要由你自己去面對的。不要掛念我們,我們會一直存在在你中間。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">展開雙手欲抱著我,我也想要抱她,到她的身軀和我接觸的剎那,眼前銀光一閃,我抱住了的只是空氣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">消失了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是嗎?我沒找到你的室友,也看不到任何人,這裡就只有你,沒有其他人了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那麼你呢?你是張澈萍吧?你是真真正正存在的吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我討厭上班。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我想,世上絕大多數人都討厭上班,除了兩種人。第一種是將自己興趣化為事業的人,他們的工作可能很辛苦,但卻是驕傲地用自己的天份和學識養活自己,還能在工作之中不斷為自己增值。第二種恰恰相反,是完全沒有興趣,沒有理想,只想著隨波逐流,追他人所追的庸碌之輩。這種人的人生除了等死以外,本來就有甚麼意義,把時間用來上班賺錢也不會影響他們做其他重要事的時間,是以他們根本沒有討厭上班的理由。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">而像我這種有理想卻苦於天份不足,不能靠著自己的興趣養活自己,為了生活每天困在辦公室中虛渡光陰的人,討厭上班,是一件理所當然的事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">為了今日和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的約定,我幾乎想過要特地告假一天,以防公司突然出亂子,要我加班處理,就像上星期五的情況一樣。當然,這主意只在我腦海中逗留了很短的時間,並沒有付諸實行,畢竟為了兒女私情不去上班,已不是我這個年紀的人會做的事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Sherman</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我手上有一個合作提案,想要聽聽你的意見,你現在有空嗎?」午膳時間過後,剛回到座位,阿信問道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哦,沒問題,這就去吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我跟在阿信後面,穿過兩排共有十二部電梯的電梯大堂,走上充斥著煙味的後樓梯,到達位於辦公室上一層的會議室。那會議室面積很小,除了一桌兩椅之外幾乎甚麼也沒有,兩側牆壁由黑金石造成,落地玻璃窗上貼上了一層灰色窗膜,使晴天看起來像陰天,陰天看起來像晚上。整個狹小的空間,只靠鑲在天花板的一盞石英燈照亮。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">公司上一任秘書曾對我透露過,這種室內設計是別有用心的,目的在於使背向窗戶的一方,對面向窗戶的一方,享有心理上的優勢,而這種會議室通常會作招聘面試之用。由於我對心理學沒有甚麼研究,對於所謂心理優勢也是知其然不知其所以然,因此當時便沒有再深究。可是現在阿信找我來這會議室中開會,又有甚麼目的?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也許已察覺到我臉上戒備的神色,甫進入會議室,放下兩個文件夾,阿信隨即安撫我道:「別擔心,別擔心,只是想找個沒有人的地方,跟你說幾句話而已。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「上星期五我罵走那個死無賴的事,對嗎?是他先撩者賤,我不認為我有做錯。要是老板有意見的話,叫他直接跟我說好了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「誰說你做錯了?」阿信請我坐下之後,自己也在面向窗戶的位子上坐下。「你做得非常好,那晚下班之後我們幾個同事去了酒吧。談起你,大家都對你讚不絕口,說你是英雄,為大家出了口氣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿信見我全副備戰狀態,也不再和我繞圈子。他一手把桌上兩個文件夾推開,從外套口袋中取出一件物件,四四正正地擺放在我的面前。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一小盒糖果。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">說句老實話,要是那只是普通的糖果,我定會懷疑阿信是否瘋了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">故弄玄虛和我來到這裡,目的就是要請我吃糖?你把我當成是和你有某種不道德關係的女同事嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我沒有把這問題問出口,皆因桌面上放著的,偏偏不是普通貨色。不,應該這樣說,那無疑是普通的貨色,但它卻是一盒彩虹色包裝的軟糖。看著這平平無奇,在各大超市士多報攤均有代售,深得年青人喜愛的彩虹怪味糖,我立時想起了兩件事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">第一件事,很自然的,是和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的初次約會。記得當日臨別之時,她送給我的,就是這款軟糖,無論名字和包裝都一樣。這個彩虹色的小盒子,目前大概還在阿卓的車中,不知是不是已經過期。而第二件事,也是和這彩虹怪味糖有關。記得某一天,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">問了我一個問題:知不知道吃怪味糖的「江湖規矩」?我說吃個糖有甚麼規矩不規矩的,他回答道:你可以選擇吃與不吃,一旦吃了,無論味道好壞,也必須把它吃完,中途不得偷偷吐掉或吞掉。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當天我們五人每人吃了一粒怪味糖,阿卓吃到的是焦糖爆殼味,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">吃到香蕉味,都是正常的口味。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">雖然也抽中了屬於正常口味的椰子味,卻像個被寵壞的小孩一般,抱怨說椰子味不是她所喜愛。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可憐的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">和我,那時同時選中了腐壞雞蛋味。(本來</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">提議我和他拿同一種顏色的糖,那麼兩人裡面至少有一人可以吃到正常的口味,誰知道兩粒都是「伏」。)這公認最難食的口味果然名不虛傳,無論把它塞到口腔任何位置,也無法阻止那極度噁心的味道,不斷蹂躪著舌上的味蕾,令我產生想要把三天以來吃過的一切,都盡吐出來的差勁感覺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">其時我左顧右盼,想找紙巾把怪味糖吐掉,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">便把吃怪味糖的江湖規矩告訴了我(而我也天真地相信了)。長痛不如短痛,我其時把怪味糖咬碎,不理怪味在口腔內肆虐,只求盡快完事,脫離腐壞雞蛋的折磨。我估計,我當時的表情應該十分可笑,不然眾人不會笑個不停,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也不至於要把我的表情拍下來。自從那次之後,我便沒有再碰那盒彩虹怪味糖。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿信絕對是個聰明人,現在把同一盒怪味糖放在我面前,我知道斷不是單單要請我吃糖這麼簡單。從他之前做過一次「信差」的經驗來看,我幾乎肯定,他今次也有訊息要傳遞給我。我把怪味糖打開,裡頭滿滿的放著五彩繽紛的糖果,哪裡有甚麼字條或信件?拿起一粒糖,仔細端詳表面有沒有像「情谷底」,「我在絕」的字刻在糖衣上面,也是無功而還。我看著阿信,期待他交待一下這是甚麼意思,他卻不理會我,逕自拿回文件夾,擺出事不關己的態度:「別問我任何問題,我只是負責送信,你懂的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">他媽的。我心中暗罵一句。罵的不是他,而是這個令我束手無策的境況。可是他既然已完成傳遞訊息的任務,也明言無可奉告,我也不必再問下去自討沒趣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">耳筒中傳來</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> DJ </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的聲線,簡單介紹著接下來要播的歌。那是一首老歌,一首反戰歌,一首我聽過一遍就迷上了的歌,歌名叫《</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">One Tin Soldier</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">》。歌詞講的是一個故事:從前有兩種人,分別是住在山谷中的人,和住在山上的人。山上有個寶藏,藏在一塊大石之下。當山谷人向山上人要求寶藏時,友善的山上人回覆說「他們願意跟山谷中的兄弟們分享寶藏」。想獨佔寶藏的山谷人拔劍提韁,殺盡了山上的人,來到寶藏跟前,推開大石</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">卻只見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">”Peace on Earth”</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">三個大字。原來所謂的寶藏,就是「世界和平」,可是最後誰都得不到它,多麼諷刺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怪味糖賣的就是『怪味』嘛!由你買它回來,拆開包裝開始,你就已經接受有可能吃到怪味的事實,否則你也不會買了,對不?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「可是,這並不是我買的。」我苦笑道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是嗎?你不要的話就給我,別浪費掉。」說著作勢伸手來搶。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我從實習生的指間看著桌面上那盒怪味糖,又看看站在身旁的實習生,把心一橫,一手抓住她的手,一手打開盒子,把怪味糖全數倒到她手裡。這個突如其來的動作使得她有點吃驚,卻又不敢亂動,生怕會弄丟手上一粒粒五彩繽紛的怪味糖。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看到了這些字,我差點兒沒氣得即時昏倒過去,幾乎從靠背椅上掉下來。本來我以為發現了寫在盒內的字,已經是相當了不起的事,怎料到又碰上另一個謎題。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怎麼在外面等我了?我還以為你會像上次一樣,等我入座之後才過來。」今次首先開口的是我。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我早就決定了,是你硬要我考慮而已。」我沒好氣地道。「還有,為了解開你那些謎題,我就花了足足三個小時。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怎麼可能?這麼簡單的小玩意,我猜你只需十五分鐘就能破解得到。看來我是太高估你了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哼,你又有沒有想過,如果我看不到盒底的字,又或者解不透當中的意思,我今晚就不會在這裡出現?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你可以打電話找我呀,新的電話號碼上次不是已經給你了嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然。訂了七點半,兩位。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那就進去吧,時間差不多了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span lang="ZH-HK" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-weight: normal;">(順帶一提,其實這個故事是有另一個結局的——我最後決定不把它叫作「第二結局」,主要是因為它基本上改變了整個故事的性質,和原先的結局也一點關係都沒有。這個「另外的結局」源於我某天在巴士上忽發奇想,外加一點想象而成。我把它收藏好,就在第二十一回最後一個問</span></span></span><span style="font-weight: normal; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: xx-small;">號</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: xx-small; font-weight: normal; text-indent: 24pt;">——那是兩個結局的分岔位置。)</span></span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-32634961601835281422014-08-15T22:46:00.000+08:002015-11-10T01:23:15.046+08:00《盛夏》第二十~二十一回<h3 style="margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是這樣的,你和那個女孩子,女兒,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我知道了。我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」北島先生的語氣平靜且凝重,通常只有在談論重要事情時,才會搬出這種語氣。講完那個「我」字之後,口袋中的電話便不識趣地響起。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">和北島先生語氣中的平靜相反,胡美華感到非常震驚,雖然北島先生未將要說的話說完,但從那種語氣,大概已知到事情不妙。聽到北島先生說出</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的名字時,更有種幾乎要窒息的感覺。那個自認識北島先生以來一直嚴密地保守住的秘密,如今居然從北島先生的口中說出,那種震撼,對於撒謊者而言,就像身處地震的震央一樣!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">其時正在講電話的北島先生,表現得有點煩躁和無奈,大概是電話另一端傳來的,不是甚麼好消息,而北島先生非去處理不可。掛斷線後,北島先生告訴胡美華,「本田在外面遇到麻煩,我必須趕去幫忙。剛才那件事我們今晚再認真談一下」,便飛快地衝出大門,遺下胡美華一個人身處在空洞的店內,找不到一片可供支撐的牆壁。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">走在街上,胡美華像明星一般竭力躲避著途人的目光,生怕旁人一見到她,就會認出面前這個女人,是年青時不正經,長大後欺騙親夫的壞女人。在居所入口處當值的保安員跟她打招呼,她也是急步向前走,不敢回頭</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">。直到終於回到家中,關上門,放下百葉簾,心驚膽戰的感覺,才稍為得到和緩。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">接下來應該到哪裡去</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可以到哪裡去?不知道,任何地方也好,只要能避開北島先生就可以。胡美華草草把個人物品扒進手提包,匆匆離開住所。街道上行人不絕,卻無法揮去孤獨的感覺。抬頭看著靛藍色的夜空,驀然重拾了很多年之前那種「天大地大,無處容身」的感覺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">到了多年前打工的酒吧,嘗試尋找相熟的人,發現人面全非;在街上走著,感到餓了,就在便利店隨便買點小吃填飽肚子,然後繼續在市中心各處流離浪蕩。胡美華有想過要打電話給</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,卻發現電話電池已告盡耗,當下決定等待天光,再往</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的家去,希望她不會老早就出了門</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當然,更希望北島不會在店裡守候著。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">由</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的家到達杜先生的家,連同轉車和等車的時間,大約是兩個多小時的車程。抵步後,三代人先簡單用過午餐,然後就是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">和胡美華輪流講述事情的前因後果。在聽</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的敘述的時候,杜先生一直坐著,偶然嘆氣,並向她投以憐惜的目光。到胡美華講出事情的經過和自己的感受時,杜先生則在室中來回踱步,眉頭也緊皺著,神情中似乎有點責備的意思。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「就是這樣嗎</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」在聽完胡美華的敘述後,杜先生問道。「你和你丈夫分離也有大半天了,對不對?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「發現你不在之後,我想他一定十分焦急,到處找你,」杜先生故意頓了一頓,確保胡美華能聽得清楚。「就像我的孫女一樣!」杜先生在「我的孫女」四個字上加強了語氣,大有替</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抱不平的意味。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我的電話沒有電,開不了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你少跟我藉口多多。要是你有顧及他的感受,至少會問我這裡有沒有充電器,對不?這裡雖然只有我一個老頭居住,沒有甚麼新奇科技,但電話充電器這等必需品我還是有的,就在窗台那邊,你和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">用的型號都有。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">胡美華循著杜先生手指的方向,望向窗台底下的插頭連接著的充電器,以及兩條分別適合兩款電話的接駁線。充電器就在那邊,只要接上電話,十分鐘後便能使它如常運作,可是胡美華卻猶猶豫豫,一會兒望向窗台,一會兒望著手上的電話,遲遲未有行動的意思。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看見母親的窘態,坐在身旁的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">輕輕擁著她的肩膀,以表示安慰。不住來回踱步的杜先生,卻終於禁不住斥責道:「自己做過的事自己負責!無論是過去的,還是現在的!出了問題就要想辦法處理,不要東躲西逃!逃避能解決問題嗎?不!逃避只會製造更多問題,使未解決的問題變得更嚴重,嚴重到你根本無力挽回,就像那個不肖子一樣!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">杜先生口中的不肖子,自然是指他的親生兒子,也就是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的生父。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你一開始對丈夫撒了個大謊,是一個錯誤;現在謊言被揭穿,你逃之夭夭,是另一個錯誤。兩個錯誤永遠不會互相抵銷,以一個錯誤去處理另一個錯誤,只會有更糟的結果!你給那個不肖子害得夠慘,我看得到;可是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">呢?你的丈夫呢?你有真正關心過其他人的感受嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我知道你不想看見媽媽流淚,可是你必須讓她自己走出這一步。你放開她吧!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">聽了爺爺的話,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">收回擁著胡美華的手,輕輕一推,使胡美華離開座位。面對著一臉死灰的胡美華,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">作了一個「去吧」的表情,鼓勵她去做一件簡單到不能再簡單,但背後意義重大的事</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">把電話接上充電器。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是,龍一,我是美華。」「很抱歉,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我電話剛剛才充了電</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」「我沒事,我現在和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在一起,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」「對不起,真對不起,我真的不知道該如何</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我對不起你。」「我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我不知道,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">喂!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怕又怎樣?怕就可以一直逃避不用面對嗎?你能逃得過良心的責備嗎?本來我並不想在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在場的情況下批評你,但看見你這麼多年來也沒有長大過,我實在忍不住。做錯事就要認,要去承擔一切後果,要是連這般基本的事都做不好,你憑甚麼做人母親?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這幾年來所受的委屈,都是拜你不斷逃避責任所賜!你現在還要再讓丈夫受委屈嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">聽到杜先生最末兩句話,胡美華像是遭到電殛一般,猛起抬起頭,目光掃過滿臉悻然之色的杜先生,掃過表情不置可否的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,閉上了眼,深深地吸了一口氣,緩緩地吐出,站起來,望向窗外,自顧自說道:「你說得沒錯。我早已身為人母,不能再像小孩一樣,老是逃避自己要負的責任,讓身邊的人替我受罪。」語畢,胡美華轉向</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,口唇顫動著,正欲開口說話,一旁的杜先生卻斬釘截鐵地打斷:「是時候起行,別再耽誤時間了。我還有話要跟我的孫女詳談,你先離開,我們再保持聯絡。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">將電話收進手提包,跟杜先生說了句「謝謝你」,在大門向</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">依依不捨地看了一眼,再關門離開,整個過程不到一分鐘,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">全都看在眼裡。待胡美華的身影消失,聽到腳步踏在石階上的聲音漸弱,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">終於守不住,伏在餐桌上飲泣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我有甚麼?未出生就沒有爸爸,小時候家裡窮得可以,別人有的玩具、圖書,我沒有,即使讀書成績不錯,也因為支付不起高昂的大學學費,而被迫在高中畢業後投身社會,幹著自己不感興趣的工作。到媽媽和北島先生情投意合,甚至淪為「幕後女兒」。多年來感情生活發展不順,好不容易才找到個對自己不錯的男朋友,卻在情緒困擾下把別人趕走。我有甚麼?我還有甚麼?</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">八十年前,杜先生在羅馬尼亞一個農村之家出生,除了父母,還有四個大哥,兩個姊姊,後來又增添一弟一妹。雖然不算很富有,但至少能夠自給自足,不愁生活。可是因為戰爭,因為那場造成無數傷亡的戰爭,迫使杜先生和家人分離。看著一同逃離的人一天比一天少;健全的人變成傷者,傷者變成死者;看著承受不住壓力而崩潰的大哥發了瘋,把一枚拔掉保險絲的手榴彈</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">塞</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">進口裡</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">經過極其艱苦的旅程,終於在戰事接近尾聲時來到本地,得以安頓下來。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你一定是覺得我的遭遇比你更悲慘,對不對?」杜先生在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對面坐下,像是早就看穿她的思緒一般,語重深長地道。「但是,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,這不是我想告訴的事。爺爺我很可憐嗎?其實比爺爺更可憐、更落魄的,大有人在!我告訴你,這就是我們做人的通病,老是和別人鬥慘,讓你鬥贏了又如何?你也不見得會因此而活得更自在吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「想他就去找他呀!別拘泥於誰先找誰的問題了,今次的確是你做得不對,要是他還肯見你,你最好趕快給他講句對不起。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我當然想找他,要是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">要是他現在就在我面前出現,那就好了。但</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我很害怕,怕他嫌棄我性情易變,不想再和我在一起</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我們兩天前才剛剛開始拍拖,甜蜜到不得了,可是我昨天卻</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只是,如果,我說的是如果,他在這期間另覓新歡的話,你也很難怪他,因為這是你造成的結果。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「甚麼嘛,我說的是真相</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」此時</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也破涕為笑,氣氛登時變得輕鬆起來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當天下午的對話到此為止。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">接受了杜先生的建議,在接下來的一段時間,她會搬到杜先生的家裡暫住,換個環境,讓飽受衝擊的心靈稍事休息,以及和北島兩夫婦暫時保持一點距離。在這段期間,杜先生會充當</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">母女倆之間的聯絡人,負責交代另一邊廂的消息,也為兩人傳遞訊息。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這一住足足就住了三個多月,在這九十多天期間,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有想過回去嗎?有,但總是提不起決心,總覺得自己的心情還未完全平伏,心中彷彿有個結還未鬆開,直至有一天聽得正在澆花的杜先生大喊:「三個月!已經三個月了,你再不找別人,別人就要降低要求,和別的女生拍拖去了!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「胡說!」我把</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抱住,恰好有一陣海風從我背後襲來,涼意陡生,令我把</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抱得更緊。</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你可以答應我一件事嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在市中心海旁大道附近的巴士總站,我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">等待十分鐘後開出的尾班巴士。過去,我們總會乘同一班巴士回去,今天因為目的地不同,變成了我陪她等巴士,然後自己回家。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「答應我,給自己幾天時間,考慮一下是不是要跟我拍拖。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">提出了要我答應的事,語氣平淡而認真。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「文,你聽我講,我在很久以前已經喜歡你了,但</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也就是因為我喜歡你,我愛你,我太愛你,我才更加不想有天與你分開。如果我們命中注定要分開的話,我也不想等到未來,當我愛你愈來愈深的時候,才被你拋棄。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一時之間,我實在想不到該如何應對。經過了三個多月,終於得以和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">重聚,這次我不會再輕易讓她離開我。我想,要把她強行留下,最簡單直接的方法是拉著她,不讓她登上巴士。然而我又立即想到,這做法可算無賴到極點,想想倒還可以,要做出來恐怕不行。而且三個月前那一天,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">歇斯底里的反抗表現,我仍歷歷在目。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">隨波逐</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;">流</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">的雲層沾污了三日月,清風在樹枝間穿插而過,留下爽朗的沙沙聲。留有灰白羊鬍子的巴士車長,從狹小的車長休息室走出,準備駕駛今天最後一程車。登上駕駛座,「隆」的一聲,引擎發動,車廂光管閃爍、亮起,我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">共處的時間正踏入倒數。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「就等一個星期,好嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不行。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「五天。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「三天。這是我的底線,三天。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我感到我不能再挑戰她的底線,因此雖然不太願意,但仍對她道:「好,成交。那麼三天之後</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">「三天之後,你自然就會找到我,要是你願意的話。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">「一言為定,星期一,我不會再讓你離開。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">計程車在家門口停下,我推開車門步出,不是司機及時提醒我我還未付車費,很可能就是一程霸王車。我心神恍惚,明顯是因為</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">之故,這點我是知道的。雖然剛才臨別時,約定了三天之後</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">——</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">下星期一再見面,但她真的會應約出現嗎?她會不會借故爽約,或者再提出更加令人不明所以的要求或條件?既然她主動約會我,我又赴約與她重逢,何以又要離別?我已用言語和行動表明願意與她同行,她還要我「考慮」甚麼?到底是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">她想得太多,還是我把一切都想得太簡單?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「真是個可憐的女孩呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">感嘆道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哈哈,肥卓,你自己的脾氣也好不到哪裡,憑甚麼說別人脾氣壞?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大笑道。「不過那女人十分麻煩這一點,我倒是完全同意,真不明白文仔你怎麼能忍到今天。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「就是因為阿文和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">彼此相愛,所以即使麻煩,阿文也在所不惜,就是這麼簡單。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">打斷了阿卓和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的一唱一和,然後望向我。「我這樣說沒錯吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「從前可能不好,未來也許會改善呢!經過了三個多月,她肯主動聯絡阿文,正是顯出了重修舊好的努力和誠意。即使表達的方式和態度看來有點奇怪,但這正正就是個開始,既然阿文甚至不用考慮就堅持和她繼續一起,又有何不可呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「如果能夠接受的話倒還好,但以後呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">轉向我。「他日她做了令你不能接受的事,你就要離開她了嗎?依我看,現在的情況似是你正打算走進一間屋,門口的牌子寫著兩行字:『內有惡犬』、『一旦進入不能離開』。雖然沒說出口,但和她拍拖的潛規則就是『無論我怎樣壞你也不能拋棄我』,這就是她提出要你考慮的原因,你還傻乎乎的說不用想,被人吃掉也不知何事。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抗議道:「這不公平!拍拖當然就是想對方一直留在自己身邊,哪有人希望自己的男朋友女朋友拋棄自己呢?」此說不禁令</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一時之間無言以對。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">續道:「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的性格和待人接物的態度,多半是受童年和少時的際遇所影響。現在大家看到的,是阿文被</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的古怪性格耍得暈頭轉向;誰知道經過阿文的感化和調教之後,她會不會漸漸變得可愛呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我暗地打了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一拳,阻止他講下去,卻無法阻止室友們的竊笑。我知道他正要提起我一次被追求的經歷</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那是我公司的上一任秘書(現在已離職),一個經常在工餘時間借故親近,直至我開口拒絕為止的女人。基於她和這個故事無關,在此不詳述。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好了好了,我想說的只是像你這種不愁找不到伴侶的人,實在沒有必要委屈自己,去跟一個性格不太好的人在一起。須知天涯何處無芳草,何況你又沒有家人催婚的壓力,為何不放眼未來,等待真正適合自己,又能好好相處的人出現?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,感情事不能計算太多,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">正色道。「何況人本身就不是完美的,與其集中數算別人有多少缺點,不如發掘一下別人身上的優點和可愛之處,那不是更好嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「多事!拍拖的又不是你,你覺得別人差又如何?只要阿文喜歡就可以了!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不忿地道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那阿文你說,」阿卓向我攤著手。「那女人到底有甚麼吸引之處,能讓你這般喜歡她?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-4586172669987594262014-08-12T21:47:00.000+08:002014-08-15T22:47:03.922+08:00《盛夏》第十九回<h3 style="margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Utopia, Palatino Linotype, Palatino, serif;"><span style="background-color: #9fc5e8;">第十</span></span><span style="background-color: #9fc5e8; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;">九回</span></span></h3>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一樣的床鋪,不一樣的思緒。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">固然感到疲累,可就是找不到睡意。按照原定計劃,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">決定看電影。不幸地,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">所選的那部「巨著」,由開首一直賣弄不同鏡頭的運用,內容卻索然無味,不知所云。電影只放到一半,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">便把它關掉,從書櫃上隨手挑了一本書,俯在床上看著。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不知是書本內容太過沉悶,還是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">終於找到了睡意,在不經不覺間,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">睡著了,還做了個夢,一個十分寫實的夢。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">高高在上的擴音器,呼喝著胡美華的名字。她連忙拖著</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的小手,急步前往三號櫃檯前一張圓椅上坐下,把</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抱在大腿上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">胡美華被盯得久了,漸漸感到渾身不自在,默默低下頭,雙手手指互扣,透露著不安。這時,櫃檯職員再向胡美華吼叫:「糧單!」這一吼,使胡美華一驚抬頭,茫然地望著櫃檯職員,輕輕搖頭。對方以為胡美華聽不清楚,一字一頓地道:「糧單!收入證明!快給我!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這次終於聽得清楚,可是胡美華不能照做</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">其時她申領的是失業救濟金,要沒有工作的人交出收入證明,豈不是強人所難?然而,縱使知道那櫃檯職員吃飽飯沒事幹,故事對自己諸多留難,她也明白現在是有求於人,面對冷嘲熱諷,也得硬著頭皮捱過去,否則將無法順利取得維持生活所需的那筆錢。胡美華吸了一口氣,輕輕地道:「抱歉,我目前失業,沒有</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">那個</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">糧單。」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這是我這個星期內,連續第四天來到這個地方。經過過去三天的經驗,我大致上已經駕輕就熟。還記得星期一那天,甫走近餐廳大門,正欲拿籌等位,帶位侍應已經認出我,把我帶到餐廳一個大型廂房中,靠近仿製壁爐的桌椅</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">已預訂的,而訂位人一欄上寫的</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">,</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">竟然是我的名字。我當然沒有訂座,可我也當然猜到這是誰的把戲。正當我露出詢問的神情,還未開口,那束著純黑馬尾,樣子甜美的女侍,已率先對我輕輕地搖頭,面帶謎一般的微笑,向我暗示「不要問」。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">過去三天如是,今天如是。七點半進入</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Sosa</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,八點吃完付賬走人,侍應們始終沒露出半點蛛絲螞跡,環顧整間餐廳,也不見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的蹤影。有一刻,我想過</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可能會躲在暗角看我,可能從對面馬路或更遠的地方透過望遠鏡窺探我,可能在餐廳某處裝置了隱蔽攝錄機</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可是馬上便知道,是自己想得太多。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">再怪,畢竟也算是個正常人,這些變態跟蹤狂的行為,她不會做。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">(我的工作效率在平均之上,因此平時只會出一半力,能夠應付每天的工作量的同時,也不必讓自己身心負荷過重。)</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不,不是「假如」,是我沒有條件不準時下班。換了是平時,我也許會維持正常的工作效率,容讓自己在公司多留一會,長命功夫長命做,把手頭上的工作逐一完成。可現在的情況,是我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">「</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">每天之約</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 15px;">」</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">,而我不可能錯過當中任何一天。從公司走到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> Sosa</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">,約莫需要</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> 20 </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">分鐘,當中包括了等電梯的時間。要是我在公司逗留太久,遲到將會是必然的結果。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">工作是公事,約會是私事。私事無論如何都比公事更重要。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">然而,當我大功告成,正準備逃離這個辦公室迷陣之時,卻被人叫住。一位同事向我走近,他身邊的氣場,告訴我不會有甚麼好事發生。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">見事不能成,他居然耍起無賴,為引起周邊同事的注意,故意提高嗓門,懇求著我:「可是我今天真的是有急事呀!求求你,就幫我一次,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">失而復得的感覺總是美好的。我隨著馬尾女侍的腳步前行,看著她單薄的背影,忽然覺得,她對我展現的真誠的微笑,和剛才那記玩笑,是這個既古板又嚴肅,擠不下半點幽默感的市中心的一股清泉。我不算脾氣很好的人,但對於她的玩笑,卻絲毫不感到反感。換了是其他人,明明有訂座,侍者卻說沒有,大概早已大發雷霆,怒問「為何會這樣」。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「請問,我可以坐在這裡嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「可以,請隨便坐。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">能見到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我自然大是振奮,雖然我相信和她見面只是時間問題(要是信中啞謎沒猜錯的話),但也沒料到只等了一個星期,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就出現。此刻我心頭激盪,有太多話想要對</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">說,卻不知從何說起。</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那天</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">發生了很多事。不,不算很多事,但是是一件我意想不到的事</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不,不,不,不算是意想不到,但</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">恕我找不到一個適合的形容詞,總之就是一件大事。無論如何,我有必要先對你說聲『對不起』。那天我的確是很過份,自從那天起,我每次想到自己的所為,都覺得很愧疚。」即使已過了一段時間,但我看出</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">仍然未能完全釋懷。我把她的手給拖住,給她一點支持,像是對她說「無論發生甚麼事,我都會站在你那邊」。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">約莫下午五點,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的電話微微一震,查看之下,發現那是老媽傳來的短訊,內容如下:</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">沒可能不知道這個短訊的意思。她當下心亂如麻,忙裡偷閒的逸致被一掃而空,胸口迅速積聚一層悶氣,向著</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">無情地擠壓,壓得她喘不過氣,有一種作嘔的感覺。為了向媽媽打聽現在的情況,以及避免在同事和客人面對展現窘態,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">立即往洗手間走去。她從來沒有想過,她和媽媽兩人一直守口如瓶的秘密,會有一天洩露到北島先生的耳裡。她甚至不敢想象,當北島先生知悉這個大秘密之後,會有怎樣的激烈反應,會怎樣對媽媽破口大罵,或者直接趕出家門。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在廁格裡,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">撥打媽媽的電話,嘗試盡快取得聯絡,讓媽媽直接告訴她事情的始末。在通訊錄中按下「美華表姐」的名字,頭一次撥打,成功接通,但沒人接聽,轉駁到留言信箱。掛斷後再次撥打,結果一樣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">第三次撥出電話,一成不變的接線聲響了三遍,便突然止住,換成了表示無法接駁的聲音。通常,這只有兩種可能性,一、對方剛剛進入訊號隔絕的地方,例如電梯內;二、對方主動掛斷線。愈發焦急的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">連續第四,第五,第六,第七次,撥打同一個電話,卻一直打不通。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">此刻為了媽媽的情況感到萬分擔心,極想立即趕到媽媽身邊。然而,理想歸理想,現實是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">根本沒有付諸實行的條件</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一來她正在上班,無法擅離崗位;二來她身份特殊,貿然前去找媽媽,碰著北島先生,將會非常尷尬;三來她無法跟媽媽聯絡上,也就無法知道媽媽目前身在何方。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也就是說,除了乾著急之外,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">甚麼都做不了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">童年面對的困境,使這位有四份之一東歐血統的女孩,煉成一種打掉牙和血吞的性格,面對逆境往往硬著頭皮往前闖,是個十分硬朗的女孩。可是當事件連繫到媽媽,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">身邊唯一的親人,她再強再硬,心情也難免受到大幅度的打擊。她想哭,但身為服務業一員,清楚知道面對同事,面對客人,必須保持</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">最基本的</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">專業態度</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">——</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">微笑。一切的壓力和情緒,在公開場合必須完全抑壓著,以至誠的態度待客。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就這樣,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在餘下一個多小時的工作時間裡,盡力假裝沒事發生過一樣。直到六點半,經歷了幾乎是出生以來最難熬的一個多小時,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的下班時間終於來到,連跑帶跳,衝進了員工更衣室。在那不到九米見方的空間內,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">得以稍為放鬆,她很想放聲大哭,一舉發洩心中的不安和恐懼,但這裡畢竟是公司,為免驚動到其他同事,她僅讓幾滴眼淚,隨著輕輕的啜泣,低調地流過面頰。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">現在該怎麼辦呢?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不知道。沒有人知道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">本來,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還打算回家洗個澡,再到北島料理店去幫忙,順道和媽媽見見面,成就近乎完美的一天。現在卻不知道媽媽和北島先生到底處於甚麼狀況,甚至根本和媽媽聯絡不上。雖然知道北島先生不是個會訴諸暴力的野蠻人,正常情況下該不會對別人動粗,但</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">心裡明白,她作為媽媽的女兒這種關係,對北島先生而言是不能接受的。當知道妻子年輕時和別人生過孩子,還一直設法瞞騙自己,一個男人再有修養,也難免會大受打擊。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">甫走出店門,男朋友就叫住了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,看樣子似乎是剛剛來到。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">心中暗忖,要是早幾分鐘離開,便不用遇上男朋友了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不是不喜歡他,只是此刻的心情,絕對不適合風花雪月。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">剛剛下班的男朋友,臉上看來有點倦意,可是也不忘逗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">高興。如果沒收到媽媽那則短訊,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大概會倚著男朋友的臂膀,盡情享受作為女朋友尊享的「撒嬌權」。然而事實是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">此刻心情糟透,莫講是男朋友,即使是碧咸在她旁邊講話,她也沒心情去搭理。幸而男朋友尚算知情識趣,見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">反應欠奉,自顧自說了幾句之後,便自覺地閉上嘴巴。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">今天下午收到媽媽那則短訊後,礙於正在上班的關係,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">必須強行把激盪的情緒控制住,對所有人保持笑容;到現在脫離了員工的身份,早前飽受壓抑的情緒,開始突破城牆,排山倒海的襲來,逼得</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">無路可逃。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有種強烈的渴望,想要自己冷靜一下。如能找到媽媽自然是最好,然而在找到之前,她不想受到任何外界的干擾,包括安慰。旁邊的男朋友嗎?雖然勉強算是善解人意,畢竟是個幸福之人,不會明白</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">內心那深層次的悲傷。即使跟他說了,頂多也只會換來幾句無實際幫助的安慰。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">步入梯間,經過北島料理店,內裡關了燈,似乎沒有人在。看見這個情景,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">倒是鬆一口氣</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">起碼看到的不是地上血跡班班,或者警方在門口設下的封鎖線。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">攤倒在沙發上也好,去浸個浴也好,把頭埋在被堆中也好,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">只想獨個兒冷靜一下,不想和任何人,包括身邊的男朋友,去解釋任何事。在極凌亂的思緒侵擾下,還要對人解釋這解釋那,是很折磨人心的一回事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">(之後的經過已在上文提及,於此不贅。)</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可幸的是,目前已是十一月下旬,距離聖誕假期只有大半個月時間。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不知由何時開始,聖誕節由某宗教的崇拜節日,變成了街裡愛人一對對的「情人節第二」。對我來說,聖誕節除了有多兩、三天假期,和多點外牆燈飾之外,實在沒有甚麼特別的意義。要跟愛人共渡時光,一年裡任何一天都可以,就是別要選聖誕節這種保證街裡人頭湧湧的大時大節。就像大一那年,我和前度女友</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在市中心某大型商場中渡過。坐落商場正中的,是一棵達四層樓高的人造聖誕樹,像圖騰一般,吸引各方人群前來參拜。說真的,無論是仿製的聖誕樹,還是如疊浪般的人群,都不是我所喜愛的事物,若不是因為</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我是絕對不會到這等地方去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我又想起,某年的聖誕夜</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">忘了是大三還是大四</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;">身</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;">邊</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">也有人</span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;">陪</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;">我</span></span><span style="text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">一起過。是阿琪,那位感情路上的過客,在海旁和我一同吹海風。海灣兩岸的大廈外牆燈飾,盛載著歡樂氣氛的遊艇,街中成雙成對的情侶,沿途兜售貴價玫瑰花的青年人,帶有海水味的</span><span style="font-size: 15px;">寒</span><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">風,以及源自阿琪口腔中的薄荷煙味,模糊地在我的腦海中殘存著。</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看著辦公室桌面的月曆,屈指一算,和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">已分開超過三個月。在這三個多月裡,我嘗試放下</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,告訴自己那不過是一場虛無漂渺的夢。是美夢也好,噩夢也好,那不重要,重要的是,它已經劃上句號。在我差不多成功說服自己之際,卻因為一個似有還無的背影,而重燃起對</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的思念。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">若然有機會再見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我會對她說甚麼,做甚麼?這個問題不止一次浮上心頭,而我的答案仍然是:不知道。我想,我是喜歡</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的。縱使她的脾氣古怪,喜怒哀樂甚難捉摸,最終也沒有打擊我和她結成情侶的決心。自從在巴士上疑似看到她的背影之後,我每天下班離開公司,即使知道機會渺茫,也會四處張望,期盼看到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">等待的身影。我有嘗試過給她打電話,但傳入耳中的,都是電話已經停止服務的話語錄音,我想,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大概已經更換了新的電話號碼。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">為慶祝某位同事升職,十幾位同事相約下班後去卡拉</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> OK</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,當中包括我在內。我不是卡拉</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> OK </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的狂熱者,即使出席,也很少開腔唱歌。今天來的原因,一半為應酬,一半是為了放空。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿信打趣地說,難得我肯唱歌,他要把我的歌聲錄下來,「讓沒來的同事感到損失」。我沒理會他的調侃,也沒管他是否有付諸實行。不一會後,屏幕上出現《黑眼圈》幾個字,眾人發出零落的歡呼,隨即靜默,讓歌曲前奏揭開序幕。</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">時間將近凌晨一時,有家室須要「交人」的,較早時已經撤退;疲態畢露和酒量不深的,不是已經倒下,就是昏昏欲睡,勉力和睡魔對抗著;幾位「咪霸」先後失聲,屏幕放著無人唱的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> MV</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。阿信看看手錶,和我四目交投,作一個「離開」的手勢,我點頭同意。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「各位親愛的同事,看來大家都盡興了。現在時候不早,該回去好好休息一下了!」阿信對著眾人宣布道。座上的人都展出同意的神情。數分鐘之後,阿信結了帳,頂著包廂的門讓所有人離開。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">即使已經是凌晨時份,但商店大街的香火仍然不減。到處是絡繹不絕的人群,已打烊的商店門前,聚集了各種小販,有賣熟食的,有賣首飾的,也有賣冒牌手提包的。轉角位置的空地兩端,有兩支樂隊正在演唱,各自吸引了一群聽眾。我們一行八人,從內街走出大街,正要分道揚鑣,阿信忽然拉住我,從公事包中拿出一個信封,遞到我的手中。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我一臉狐疑,接過那個平平無奇,在辦公室內到處可見的白色信封,上面沒有寫上任何字。我望著阿信,以眼神詢問他:這到底是怎麼的一回事?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我把信封打開,取出信箋,上面有收信人(那當然是我),寄信人,和非常簡短的內容。我對著那封簡短的信發怔,於熙來攘往的人潮中顯特尤其礙眼。在不斷被撞,被要求不要擋路後,我選擇邊走邊看,看得出神,不經不覺間已走到巴士站。可我馬上又想起,現在已經是夜深,尾班巴士早就開走,意味著我必須乘計程車回去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">驟眼看來,應該是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">想約你見面,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">撥開垂落眼前的髮鬢,擺出十分認真的態度。「雖然文法不對,大概亦離不開這個意思。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">搔搔後腦勺作思考狀:「我想</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這會不會是某個特別日子?比如說,初次見面?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不會吧,我跟她前次見面,是在北島料理店,那已經是很久以前的事了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「她的生日?相識一周年紀念?你們第一次約會?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「第一次約會嗎</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這個應該最接近了。雖然我沒記住確實的日子,但如果講到第一次約會,大概就是七月尾左右。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「可能她就是知道你善忘,才特地寫下這個日子來提醒你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">瞪了我一眼,語氣中有點責備我為何連這些重要的日子都忘掉。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我看著信箋發愁,心中暗罵</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">多此一舉。要找我的話,為甚麼不直接打電話?在巴士站,在我公司樓下,或者在北島的料理店等我出現也可以,為何非要寫信不可?寫信倒也罷了,但內容寫得半明不白,是要跟我開玩笑,還是惡作劇?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看到我的愁容,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">安慰我道:「慢慢來吧,不用急。我們三個人再細心點看,總會參透到的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「先一步一步進行歸納吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的語氣,像極了電視劇中飾演警探的演員。「這個約會邀請,人物包括你和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,時間是晚上七點半到八點,但不知是哪一天。至於地點,信中沒有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就在這時,一直不作聲的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,突然瞪大雙眼,急促地吸一口氣,似是忽然想到了甚麼。為免打亂他的思緒,我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">只看著他,沒有催促他快點把想到的說出來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">左顧右盼,霍地站起,拿來一枝筆,在信上打了幾個圓圈,再將信轉到我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的面前。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「雖然不能完全肯定,但在對約會地點毫無頭緒的情況下,算是最合理的推斷了,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">道。「果然是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,腦筋轉得真快。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好,目前只剩下約會的日期了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「等等,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">明白了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「根本沒有約會的日期。我只要每天在那段時間,那個地方出現,等她,就可以了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「根本沒有約會。我和她以前都是這樣,下班後不是我去等她,便是她來等我。就正如她所講,除了頭一次約會之外,我從來沒有正式約過她。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「剛才</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">問你,會等</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">等到甚麼時候,你是怎樣回答的?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這樣就足夠了,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">盡力不讓自己顯得太累。「你想她,她想你,難得她主動邀約,這樣不就是很好嗎?將來你們會怎樣是將來的事,你現在只需要抓緊機會,明白嗎?」</span></span><br />
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-87605599089676000622014-08-08T23:59:00.002+08:002015-07-24T17:54:21.647+08:00《盛夏》第十六回<h3 style="margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">鎖匙插進匙孔,生硬地向右扭了扭,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">跨步進入。當緊隨其後的我打算跟著進去時,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">卻像沒當我存在一般,隨手把門關上。這變卦突如奇來,我此料未及,眼見眼前大門迅速關上,我下意識地一掌擊在門上,立時發出巨響,使我也為之震動。然而,更震撼的,是那記無情力,使看起來很脆弱的木門應聲而開。從一起驚呼聲,我估計</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">剛才被門撞個正著。我立即跨進室內,關注</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的情況。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">從</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的姿勢,我大概能估計到當時的情況。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">躺坐地上,兩手分別按住左肩,以及左腰和盤骨間的位置,頭枕在臂上,啜泣聲聽起來很是悲涼。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一段時間過去</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也許是七分鐘,或者是十分鐘</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還未停止哭泣,淒厲的哭聲倦透,漸由淺淺的啜泣,以及濃重的呼吸聲取代;眼眶的粉紅色愈來愈深,眼淚水幾乎哭乾,臉上找不到一條清晰的淚痕。我輕輕在她跌痛的位置上按摩,希望在減輕她痛楚的同時,能讓她感受到我對她真切的關懷。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我知道每個人都需要獨處的時間,而通常當別人開口要求獨處,我都會知情識趣,不再打擾對方。然而,如今在我眼前的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,卻有點不對勁,令我非常擔心,是不是在她身上,有甚麼事情發生了。如果她只是想對我撒嬌,吸引我的注意力,決不會對我說出這些話。事出必有因,這次我不肯輕易放棄了解事情的機會,因此對於</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的請求,並沒有照辦。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">管</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">彷彿用盡全身僅存的氣力,喊出這半句話,然後心力交瘁地軟攤在沙發上,毫無靈氣的雙眼,毫無靈魂的軀殼,讓人看了心酸。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好,好,」聽得我說要離開,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">爽快地回應。「好,多謝你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我拿起放在地上的手提袋,準備離去,對</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">說了一句安慰的話:「我過幾天再找你吧,你好</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,不。不要找我,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的手蓋住眼睛,像是要逃避眼前一切。「別理我,別管我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那,到你想找我時,就打電話給我吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">本來,那只是一句為說而說的圓場話,沒料到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">聽到後,反應會如此之大。她吸了一大口氣,從沙發上一躍而起,以快而急的動作,扒起她的手提包,拿出電話。當我還在想她要打電話給誰,說時遲,那時快,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大步走到窗前,用力推開窗戶,然後更用力地,把手中的電話丟出去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我唯恐</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有可能進一步做出更瘋的事,因此我只好順從她的意思,離開她的住所,關上大門。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的哭聲透過門縫傳進我的耳窩,使我感到苦澀萬分,然而她所下的逐客令十分堅決,我再想關心她,也只能帶著依依不捨的心情,一步,一步,又一步,逐吋遠離</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的家。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對於我們來說,想要燒烤,不必和一大班人</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">尤其是不受控制到處亂跑亂叫的屁孩</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">擠在郊野公園燒烤場中,苦等少得可憐的燒烤爐、野餐桌。在居所旁邊,那個幾乎已經無人使用的碼頭,我們五人,加上阿卓的女友和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的女友,一共七人,在月光之下、火光之上,共渡一個肉香撲鼻的周末夜晚。平時由於工作和作息時間對不上,很少有像今晚這種攜眷出席的聚會。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">屈指一算,自和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">最後一次見面開始計起,已經有幾個月了。人會變,月會圓,尤其像</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這種一天四季的人,不知已變成了甚麼模樣?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這下你滿意了吧!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對我說的最後一句話,即使事隔數月,每一個字,和那低沉得可怖的聲線,以至激動無比的神情,偶爾還會在我心中浮現,言猶在耳。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">最了解我。看到我介乎於放空和思考之間的神態,她坐到我身旁,臂膀架在我的肩頭,低聲問道:「怎樣,還在想著『阿爾巴尼亞』嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">柔情似水的聲線,讓人聽了很是舒服,有一種受到安撫的感覺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">(事實上,我從未看輕</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在治癒人心方面的本領,只是她潛心工作的那幾年,掩蓋了她這方面的才能。)</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我無可奈何地笑笑。通常,當我的心事被相熟的人看透時,就會出現這種笑容。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「咦,有故事聽!」在旁偷聽的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">興奮地說。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哦,是你們兩個的情話嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">手上那根燒烤叉上的兩條香腸,像兩根手指,恰好指向我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。看到這個有趣的畫面,眾人都哄笑起來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然不是,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">邊笑邊揮著手。「我和這傢伙在小學六年級時已經玩完了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「呀,你錯了!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">指著</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,一本正經地道。「這個,應該當成男人才對。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在一片喧笑聲中,我便把和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">如何認識,約會,到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">離開,以及離開前發生過的大小事,逐一道出。由於在座有人還未聽過任何有關我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的事,因此在一些細節上,我必須講得更詳細。之後又提到和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">分別,幾個月後的某天,在巴士上疑似看到她的背影,以及在看到背影後一直在想的事。雖然在座大部份人都已聽過我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif;"><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">之間的故事,但每當講到緊張刺激處</span><span style="font-size: 15px;">,</span><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">如在商店大街爭執那一幕,眾人還是聽得異常投入,猶如身歷其境。</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「大致上就是這樣。本來過了幾個月冷河,我已經沒有很掛念、很想見到她的欲望,算是放下了吧。」我口裡為這件事作最後總結,手裡嘗試把剛放上燒烤叉的黑椒牛排調整至最佳角度。「只是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">只是當我再次看到她的背影,不知怎地,我又再想起她,甚至有種想找到她,和她見面的衝動。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你說</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">偶然會出現在料理店,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的女友問道。「那你有向料理店的員工打聽她的去向嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這個嘛</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">自從</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">離開後,我就沒有再在料理店見過她,店裡頭無論是北島先生、胡美華還是其他人,都沒有提到半句有關</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的事,就像這個人根本沒存在過一樣。連曾經親口對我述說往事的胡美華,也不給我半點暗示,我也不好意思開口問人了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿卓皺起眉頭,捋著下巴,以偵探作出探理的口吻說道:「這個</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,會不會偷偷躲在料理店的假天花裡,或者是暗門後面等地方,靜靜觀察你的一舉一動,同時又不讓你看見?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好一個假天花,你把別人當是蟑螂還是老鼠?呀</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不過把鏡頭安裝在機械老鼠身上,對目標人物進行監視、監聽,甚至暗殺,倒也不是新聞,肥卓你真是個天才。對了文仔,記得不要和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">單獨兩個人到那邊吃飯,不然有可能死於非命呢!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿卓自然聽得出話中的諷刺意味,反問道:「那麼</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">先生,請問閣下有甚麼高見呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">側著頭,思考了幾秒鐘。「以我估計,你所謂看到的背影,未必就是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的,而僅僅是你的主觀投射。你純粹是看到一個和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有七成,甚至只有五成相似的背影,就以為那是她,其實不然。再講,一個人在幾個月裡的變化可以很大,尤其當她有心不讓你看到。所以,除非你至少能看到她的正面,或者跟她談幾句話,否則一切都不能作準!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你上次向我們提到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">身上的香水,對不?有時散發清淡蘋果味,有時卻變得又濃烈又難聞,令人反胃,對不?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,不。請聽我講。所謂</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Numauita</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,是羅馬尼亞一個香水品牌,所生產出的同名香水。由於本身規模不大,加上羅馬尼亞本身不以出產香水著稱,因此除了部份當地人,和到過該處的旅客以外,幾乎沒有人知曉</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Numauita </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的名字,我也是在機緣巧合之下才知道它的存在。這玩意最特別之處,在於內含的一種物料,會使它隨著噴上的對象不同,而發出不同的味道。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">此時,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的女友接上話頭:「正確的說法,是只有當</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Numauita </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">噴在物主身上,混和物主獨有的體味,才能揮發出預期中的香氣。即使有體味和物主相近的人,甚或乎物主的親人把它噴上,也只會發出極其難聞的臭味。每枝</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Numauita </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">都是獨立製成,當中最重要的一環就是體味,每個人獨一無二的體味。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這就是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">把香水往我臉上噴,會變得奇臭無比的原因。」我自顧自的沉吟著。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這時,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">提出了一個頗為玄妙的問題:「那麼,這</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Numa </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">甚麼的香水,原本是甚麼模樣的呢?是原本就是臭的,只有噴在對的人身上才會變香?還是原本是香的,但落在錯的人身上才變臭?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這個問題沒人答得上,大家思考了一會,也想不出圓滿的答案,對於香水的討論也就到此為止,話題回到我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的事情上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我不知道怎去解釋,但我有種感覺,覺得</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">根本沒有離開過,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">道。「純粹是出於直覺。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我從那條舊梯間步下,一時間未能適應街燈的亮光,忙揚起手,遮住眼前的光線,同時掏出手機,撥打</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的號碼。我發現,自從那天在巴士站巧遇</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">(記得那是第一次約會之前的事),交換了電話號碼之後,我從未打過給她(當然她也沒有)。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">按下電話號碼,從刻板的接駁鈴聲中期待接聽的一刻,無人接聽轉駁至留言信箱,掛斷</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我一連重覆了十次,仍然不得要領。我屢敗屢試,心中的煩躁感覺逐點上升。這時,我又感到背後有人輕拍我的肩頭,我想大概是不熟悉郊區路況的路痴前來問路。帶著不耐煩的表情猛然轉過頭,我卻怔住了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">拍我肩頭的不是甚麼路痴,而是一眼就能認出的人,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你做的好事可真精彩,我給你玩弄得一頭霧水,正要抓住你問個明白。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一抹疾風捲至,襲向站在街中的我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,冷不防同時顫抖一下。衣衫單薄的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">雙臂懷抱住身體,再問我道:「你很喜歡在街頭被風吹嗎?」我搖頭,也立時明白她的意思,遂跟隨</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的步伐,走上燈光昏暗的梯間,進入她的居所。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只是太突然,對不對?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒有,但她的情緒的確很激動。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「正常的,每次提起以前的事,都總會這樣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一臉事不關己,像是聽到了一條極其無關痛癢的蠢問題一樣,看樣子並沒有回答的打算,也不在乎我的感受。不過,面對這種無賴的態度,我實在也拿她沒辦法。眼見床上兩人別無睡意,正想轉換別個話題時,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">卻開口道:「我的未來幸福,一直是媽媽頭號擔憂的事。縱使我身體沒有毛病,經濟沒有困難,媽媽卻一直擔心我找不到合適的伴侶,最後要孤獨終老。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對於胡美華的煩惱,我倒是很能理解。第一,作為不幸感情關係的受害者,深切領會到當中的辛酸,自然會對女兒的感情生活倍加重視,提防她重蹈自己的覆轍;第二,基於胡美華把</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">性格不好相處的毛病扛上身,只要</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一天找不到好歸宿,胡美華一天也會為著這一點而自我責備;第三,當</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">找到合適的對象,在情感上對媽媽的依賴便會減少,胡美華也就可以全心全意和丈夫北島先生共處。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你總算承認你是利用我令你媽媽開心了吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒錯。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你在說甚麼?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我笑你是傻瓜!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你恨我利用你?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你敢說你沒有嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你恨我對你說『我喜歡你』?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那請問,這兩件事之間有矛盾嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這條問題再簡單不過,可是我乍聽之下,卻呆住了,無法回答。剛才和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的對話之中,或者在我先入為主的看法之中,只覺得</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是個可惡的騙子,為了令媽媽感到安心,不惜以花言巧語欺騙我的感情。當我得知自己被利用後,當下只感到憤怒,卻沒想到「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">利用我」,和「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">喜歡我」兩件事,是可以並存的。也就是說,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">並沒有說謊!</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我恍然大悟,歉意陡生,連忙對</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">道歉:「真對不起,是我冤枉了你,還對你這麼兇,請原諒我吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你終於明白了,傻瓜。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">嫣然一笑,並沒有要責怪我的意思,使我更感難堪。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。真的對不起,是我錯了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「唉,要是你也喜歡我,那多好。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">說著,目光從我臉上轉走,望著天花板放</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif;">空</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我伸手過去抱住</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,讓她枕在我的肩頭上。這次,她沒有反抗,倒教我有點意外。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-52993731457582583602014-08-05T22:16:00.000+08:002015-07-24T17:53:28.060+08:00《盛夏》第十三回<h3 style="margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">溫柔地打斷了我。「帶你見見媽,這件事比較重要。」</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我想,任何人聽得伴侶說出這句話,大概都會感到無上的甜蜜和幸福。說真的,乍聽這話,我的心頭的確有飄過一絲幸福感覺,可是同時也泛起一陣不安感。帶著男或女朋友去「見家長」,是情侶發展到一定階段的必經之路,可是我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">根本不是情侶!這點我知道,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">更加知道。雖然她沒有言明,但現下和見家長又有甚麼分別呢?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">Tirana </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">捧著碗子,將豬骨湯底一飲而盡,「咚」地放下碗子,略帶豪爽地舒一口氣,以紙巾輕輕抹嘴,看了正在打掃的胡美華一眼,突然站起,離開座位,對我和胡美華說道:「我先上去辦點事,待會再回來,你們先聊聊吧。」說罷向我嫣然一笑,做出「不用緊張」的口形,便轉身離開,拉開玻璃門,指尖輕巧地拂過掛在門上的小木牌,將「準備中」一面對外。整套動作彷彿排練已久,只待我加入成為局中人。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「噢不,她很好,很</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">關心我。」在伯母面前,我無法講</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">半句壞話。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哦,叫我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Sherman </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就好了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「原諒我這樣說,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Sherman</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,我覺得你和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">以前的那些男友不同。在我的印象中,你比那些人好得多,正經得多。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我這個女兒的性格很古怪,我知道。能夠忍受她的古怪脾氣的人,實在不多。」胡美華嘆了一口氣,看著料理店的玻璃門,又復望著我,要在我的眼神中摸索我對她這句話的意見。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「每個人都有情緒化的一面吧,」我攤著手,表示這事不足掛齒。「比</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">更難相處的人,我身邊多的是。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不同,這不是單純相處上的問題。也許你也意會到,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是個極度需要安全感,同時又愛胡思亂想的孩子。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你知道嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">從前每次和我談及有關她拍拖的事,都是在分手後。從她的口中,我得知她每次失戀的原因,不是別人另結新歡,就是別人突然遠走高飛,而她總是被拋棄的一個</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我不知道</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有沒有跟你提及過這些事,不過你作為她的男友,知多一點也無妨。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">雖然我已從</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">口中聽過更深入、更煽情的講解,但我還是向胡美華微笑,以示對她向我坦白的感謝。</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">胡美華續道:「說就說是遭到拋棄,但實情</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">實情是怎樣,我這個做媽媽的又如何會不知?她這種對安全感毫無止盡的渴求,足以迫死任何一個靠近的人,我不敢對她說,她自己也不敢認。唉,只怪我沒盡好做母親的責任,讓她</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「伯母,別這樣怪責自己,這不是任何人的錯呀!」我連忙把紙巾遞給正在哽咽的胡美華。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不瞞你說,我以前是個不正經的女人,經常離家出走,和不良份子花天酒地</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一直到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">出生,才猛然醒覺為人母親的責任是如此的大,不只是說說而已。」胡美華臉上的淚痕滿載了辛酸。「我起初打算回家,家人卻早已放棄我,不讓我踏入家門半步;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的生父早就不知溜到甚麼地方;中學的舊同學不是為了學業自顧不暇,就是完全看不起我,連一句安慰說話也不講;從前的豬朋狗友縱然有空,我也不想</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">跟她們學壞。在我以為全世界都離棄我們之際,幸好還有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的爺爺出手接濟,讓我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">渡過最難熬的困境。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">胡美華向我點點頭:「謝謝你。我一直在做這些</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">基層的工作,直到某天遇上</span></span><span style="text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">龍</span></span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">一</span></span><span style="text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">,和他一見鍾情</span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「何止是關懷備至,幾乎是付出所有!這個傻瓜為了和我朝夕相對,甘願離鄉別井,把家族經營的料理店搬到本地,花了一半積蓄買鋪、買屋,所做的都是為了我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」說到這裡,本來情緒稍為平伏的胡美華,突然「嘩」的一聲嚎哭起來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」胡美華奮力和情緒對抗,可是愈是急於平伏,愈沒有效果,說不到幾個字,又哽咽著說不下去。我執起了胡美華顫抖著的手,用平和的語氣,安撫這位把我當成是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">男友的母親。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">她很乖,很孝順,即使平日工作多麼辛勞,每星期都總會有三、四天到來料理店,以幫忙為名,實際上是爭取和我相處的時間;明明可以租住更舒適的房子,卻為了方便和我見面,搬到料理店上層,住殘破不堪的舊屋</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">每次在料理店和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">共事,想起從前還是手抱娃娃,現在已經長大成人,自力更生,心中都有莫名的安慰;每當看到她困倦落魄,我是多麼想去抱她一下,但我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我並不能這樣做。為了不讓</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">龍一</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">知道真相,我必須硬生生地把這份情意鎖在心裡!」</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">然而,我發現詫異這回事是沒有極限的。很多時候,當你認為事情已經非常奇特,令你感動非常詫異之時,往往會有另外一件更加奇特的事殺出,教你暈頭轉向,不知如何應對,就像胡美華接下來跟我說的話一般。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">本來,胡美華將我誤認為女兒的男友,已經讓我感到非常尷尬(這當然是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">做的好事),現在聽得這話,我的腦海中更是充滿問號,不明為何她會突然冒出這樣的一句話來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">寫在我臉上的詫異,大概都看在胡美華眼裡。她嘆一口氣,語重心長地對我坦承:「很奇怪吧?做媽媽的不去守住女兒的幸福,反而和她的男友討論離開甚麼的。不過奇怪歸奇怪,這些話卻是我的真心話。」她略為一頓,十根手指互相擠擁著。「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的性格我很清楚,要找個又愛她,她同時看得上眼,還要能接受她那古怪脾性的人,很難,世上恐怕也沒有幾多個。我不打算為我女兒講好話,不過我看得出</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">很喜歡你</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">。</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">她不是</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">那種</span></span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">會見異思遷的壞女孩,這點你大可以放心。至於</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">……</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">至於你未來能不能忍受她,還會不會愛她,就看她的造化了。」</span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-47544273319167651352014-08-03T23:28:00.000+08:002015-11-03T13:39:43.848+08:00《盛夏》第十一~十二回<h3 style="margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我身旁的位子空著。那是預留給</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的位子。她每逢周一、三、五都要上補習班,在這些日子我總會先行到步,一邊溫習一邊等待</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">前來自修室會合。在正常的情況下,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">五點便會回到自修室,最遲的一次也不過五點半,可是今天有點不同。五點,五點半,五點四十五分,六點</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是未見蹤影,時間一分一秒的過去,使我感到愈來愈擔心,專注溫習的心情大受影響。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">六時二十分。我的忍耐力快要到底臨界點,正打算離開座位到外面去找</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,卻感到一陣涼風襲來,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">出現在自修室門口,手上舉重若輕地捧著至少十五本,每本至少有兩厘米厚的書本,來到我的座位跟前,把書本散落在桌面上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「但這些都不是我選修的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」我猶猶豫豫地把整句話說完。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對我笑了笑,同時向下一指。我循她指尖所示的方向望去,眼前的境象教我窒息。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「快把這些讀好!我的腿就等你來救了!」「不能再耽擱了,時間無多呀!」「快點,快點!不然就趕不及了!」「你還在等甚麼?快行動吧!」「快點!快!快!快</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">遍身冷汗沾濕了衣衫,弓著身子的我躺在床上,兩臂窩囊地包裹著頭顱,原本蓋住的被鋪被人為地移到床尾,剛才在夢中感受到的涼風,大概就是由此而起。原打算進來喚醒我的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">站在睡床旁邊,臉上盡是擔憂的神情。我下意識地望向</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的下半身</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">幸好,兩隻腳都完好無缺。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是做了噩夢吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「對,真的很</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可怕。」即使已脫離夢境,但我心仍有餘悸。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不用怕,有我在,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">捉緊我的手,透過手心把源源不絕的安全感傳遞給我。「我想知道你的夢境,可以告訴我嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我點點頭,以極短的時間在腦海中進行倒帶,然後便把自己身在自修室溫習,苦等</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">未果,到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">捧著一疊理科參考書現身,看見她少了一條腿等境景,一一和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">分享。聽到最駭人的一段,連她也不禁皺起眉頭,倒抽一口氣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「事情就是這樣。我不時會夢見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,當中有甜夢也有惡夢,但這樣恐怖的還是第一次。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「都過了這麼多年了,還未能放下那件事嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">口中的「那件事」,自然是指</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當年在躲開我的途中,意外摔斷腿的事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「來,給我聽好。是那個混蛋</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">女人,首先沒盡好做女友的責任,才要你到處去找她。你擔心她,用盡方法打聽她的下落,正是負上作為男友的責任。她選擇跳出窗戶躲開你,不肯面對你,也是不負責任的行為,跌傷是她咎由自取,是報應!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我有時也會想,如果當年能跟她講清楚,那件事可能就不會發生了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你想跟她講清楚,但她可有給你機會?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有點氣結。「別忘記,你是跟她失去聯絡之後,才決定到學會室外等她的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我停下來,不再在這話題上糾纏,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也正有此意。她把手掌舉到臉頰旁,把臉頰輕輕貼在手掌上,我頹然點點頭,望望胸口和手袖,再一臉懇求地望著她。她沒好氣地從我的衣櫃中,拿出一件球衣,拋到我的面前,手指在半空中劃了個小圓圈。我隨即會意,把沾了汗的上衣脫下交給她,她把衣服擱在肩上,走出我的房間,輕力地關上了門。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">聽得</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這樣說,使我感到萬般欣慰,打從心底展現出笑顏。看到我這欣慰之中帶點嘉許的一笑,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">報以一個靦腆的笑容。她望望窗外一片陽光普照,然後向我提議道:「既然無端多了一天假期,何不出去走走?」我幾乎想都沒想就答應了,完全忘卻了今天告的是病假,理論上該留在家中休息。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">到了市中心,隨心地到處走,在大街小巷間遊弋,唯獨沒有走進那些自詡「走在時代尖端」,號稱「超現代化」大型商場裡,因為我們兩人都不喜歡這些地方的氣氛。基於這個原因,我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這次出外,有超過一半的時間放在位處街頭巷尾、偏僻角落的小店,那些在時代巨輪之下苟延殘喘的小角色。在大城市之中,人類作為群居動物應有的人情味,在這些可愛的地方有著充裕的存貨。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在我的記憶中,在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">突然離開之前,這種神情不可能在她臉上出現。因為工作關係,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">很難約,即使偶然有五個人一起外出的機會,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也從未完全脫離工作,總是為了工作上的種種而煩惱。每次我們勸她放輕鬆,她也許會暫停一下,然後又繼續去想有關工作的事,彷彿是陷入病態一般。而如今在我眼前的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,是一個有生命,有靈魂的人,懂得著眼於自己和身邊的人和事,不再是只會為公司賣命的一台機器。用最簡單的話去形容,就是「找到了自我」。(當然,轉變的過程有多艱苦,作為</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">身邊人的我不會不明白。)</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你真的變了很多呢。」我由衷地道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「真的嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">調皮地裝出驚愕的表情。「那你還喜歡我嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然喜歡啦,」我想都沒想就肯定地回答道。「由小學四年級開始一直都喜歡!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嘻嘻,你真會逗人高興。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「喜歡!你一直都是我最喜歡的人。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我知道</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這個答案是發自內心的,就如我剛才所給的答案一樣。人們說,小學時期結識的朋友,很多能夠信守一生,何況我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這對「小戀人」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">看到這裡,大家應該都能猜到,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就是我小學時代的「女友」。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我走下梯級,一步,兩步,三步,眼睛從未自</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">身上移開;四步,五步,六步,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">今天的穿著打扮,和初次約會那天相同,包括那教人永誌難忘的蘋果味香水;七步,她似乎已肯定我會走近,有點刻意地左顧右盼;八步,她的嘴角微微揚起,是冷酷臉上的一處綠洲;九步,我已對她走出九步,她會向我走出那剩下的一步嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「半小時左右,不算太久。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這個時間不是要上班嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我請了假。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">鬆開了纏在我腰際的手,我也放下抱住她的臂膀,啟程前往巴士站。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「昨天我生病了,沒上班,真對不起。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「有甚麼好對不起,又不是你故意生病的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我沒等你,自己回去了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是嗎?那真的是太好了,幸好你沒有在這裡乾等。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">以這種方式回應我的關懷,使我只有兩條路可走:一是站在原地,等候她先開口說話;二是完全收起對她的關心,揚長而去,反正她也不需要我。這次我選擇了前者。過了半晌,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">終於開口,說話的聲線比平時稍為低沉,視線停留在地上一個看上去頗新簇的去水渠鐵蓋。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這句話可算是切中了我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">應該說是我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一直置之不理的問題的核心。我倆之間維持著甚麼關係,有何種身份,一直以來誰都沒開口講個明白。當然,「你當我甚麼」這種問法,是要把正名責任全數推給我,這點我一聽就聽得出。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我給的答案簡而精:喜歡的人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">喜歡我?嘿。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">從齒間吐出表達輕視的笑,令這句話充滿諷刺意味。平白受了一記悶氣的我,自然也不會有任何正面的感覺,是以當下並無回應。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我不覺得你有喜歡過我,從來沒有,」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">一字一頓地說著,目光還是停留在地上。「在你的眼中,我絲毫沒有地位可言,連為你解悶的角色也演不上。我從來沒有被你重視過,我覺得自己根本是一個笑話。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別這樣想,要是我不重視你,我又怎會每天和你約定一起回去?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你有約過我?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">猛地把臉轉向我,對我怒目而視,像是剛聽到一則匪夷所思的事,雙眼隱約圍著一圈紅暈。「除了第一次和你約會之外,你何曾正式約過我?沒有!一直以來只是我等你,或者你等我,約個屁!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你不過是為了應酬我,根本不是真心講!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">剛才我倆的爭吵過程,吸引了旁邊幾個途人的目光,幸而沒進一步成為繁忙的商店大街的焦點。我伸出手去牽</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的手,被她一手甩開</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這是意料中事,也是她愛玩的把戲,我從前不知,如今不可能不知。我沒讓</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">得逞,以另一隻手捉住</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的手,把它塞進我的手掌中。看到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: , serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">發自內心的一笑,我便知道這次終於做對了事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體" , "serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-76812863711718118292014-08-01T22:37:00.000+08:002015-07-24T17:52:21.568+08:00《盛夏》第十回<div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">記得在初次約會中,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">雖談不上口若懸河,但絕對是個十分健談的人,無論說到甚麼話題,以至較為私人的事,她也總能夠說個不停。然而在那天之後,她的話變得很少很少,見面時偶然會申訴一下工作的辛勞,但幾乎僅此而已。我不知道我是不是說錯了話,或者做錯了甚麼,令</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不願意和我說話,只保留著那張冷酷的臉。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗨。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你心情不好嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怎麼老是不言不語的?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「難道心情好就要不停說話嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我不是這個意思,只是我記得之前的你和我很談得來,近來卻總是一言不發,擔心我有沒有做錯甚麼事惹你不高興。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你覺得你有做錯事嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「算了算了,當我沒問過吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">無端吃了一記悶棍的我,當下不再追問下去,免得自討沒趣。平時在辦公室受的氣,包括來自上層的苛刻要求和部份下屬的敷衍態度,我會視之為工作的一部份,通通不會放在心上。再大的怨氣,通常也不會在我胸中逗留超過十分鐘。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這番鬧情緒,對我來說既不須義務承受,更不是職責所在。如果是我的女朋友,或者是像</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這種知心好友,我也能夠接受包容,可是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我主動去關心她,她卻對我擺出這副臭架子,實在令我心裡感到十萬個不爽。既然不是甚麼有特殊身份的人,憑甚麼在我面前耍這種小姐脾氣?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">巴士由市中心到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">家門前的車站,假使路面暢通無阻,大約須要半小時。在這一千八百秒,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">會繼續保持緘默,我也不會嘗試打擾她,下車後連道別也省下來,明日和以後再不會相約回家,這段短暫的情緣將告一段落,和過去很多快來快去的關係沒有分別</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在巴士來到之前,我已有了這個心理準備。先構想每件事的最壞情況,評估自己受影響的程度,是我一貫的習慣。這種做法無疑偏向消極和悲觀,但的確能讓我免於突如其來的情緒崩潰。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">喜歡坐近窗口的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,平時總會戴起耳筒,默默看著窗外的風景,今天卻一反常態,甫坐下便纏著我的手臂,面頰來回磨擦,表現得小鳥依人,令我感到頗為意外,更讓向來受軟不受硬的我為之軟化。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好像惹你生氣了,對不起呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的語氣比起剛才和善得多,似是有意和解,令我再找不到怪責她的理由。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不要緊,誰人都會有心情差的時候。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「其實我並不是心情不好,只是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我面對喜歡的人都會這樣。我也不知為甚麼。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別取笑我了好嗎,我真的不是故意激怒你的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好吧,原諒你啦。」我輕撫</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的頭,讓她繼續靠在我的肩頭上。在接下來一段短時間裡,大家都沒說話,然而這種屬於甜蜜的沉默,和較早時類近冷戰的情況有天淵之別。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你喜歡我這樣倚著你嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「喜歡呀。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「有多喜歡?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「很喜歡,很享受這種感覺。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「可是我不習慣這樣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那就算了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「但我會嘗試去適應,就像你努力遷就我一樣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「乖。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只限今天。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也好。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">由於路上輕微的擠塞,巴士用了近四十五分鐘才抵達我們的目的地。縱使表示不習慣,但</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是全程倚著我入睡。這四十多分鐘的親密雖然很短暫,亦足以令我心情大好,同時間在腦海生出了一種不良的想法</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">比較。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">或</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">倚在我的肩膀,那是一種大哥照顧妹子的感覺(縱然事實是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">比我大幾個月,而且幾乎和我一樣高);如果換成是阿琪或其他女性,我大概不會有任何感覺。一直以來只有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,才能在倚靠著我的時候帶給我有甜蜜的感覺。事隔數年,這種沉寂多時的甜蜜感覺因</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的出現而甦醒,是代表她就是我要找的人嗎?還是代表經過了一定的時間,如今</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在我心中的重要性已逐步消退?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在剛才的對話中,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">間接地承認喜歡我,事實上此前她也有說過類似的話,問題是她同時也向我坦白說自己不會愛上我,而事實上我們誰都沒提起拍拖這回事。是順理成章還是刻意迴避?我不知道,但我傾向相信是後者。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">同一個車站下車的乘客四下散去,巴士引擎聲漸遠,剩下一抹煙塵在街中流離浪蕩。安裝在高架天橋底部的街燈像片場裡的鎂光燈,在空曠的街道中突顯我們兩人的存在。如今這種相對無言的境況,既非劍拔弩張,亦不屬於甜蜜,而是一種彷彿令時間變慢的尷尬氣氛。一秒,兩秒,三秒、四秒</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我默默數著,看</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">並無開口說話的意思,只好由我來打破沉默。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「時候不早了,快回家吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你要走就走吧,不必理會我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我送你上去好不好?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「送甚麼,我沒有腳不會自己走嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那至少我可以陪你多一會嘛。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只是幾層樓梯的距離,不陪也罷。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「明天我們都要上班,這樣吧,我今個周末過來陪你好不好?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「夠了,以後的事以後再算,別給我下任何承諾!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「好的,那你快點回去吧,不然</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-88590531057447277622014-07-30T22:04:00.000+08:002015-07-24T17:52:01.475+08:00《盛夏》第九回<h3 style="background-color: white; margin: 0px; position: relative; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這樣</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">你不會覺得很辛苦很委屈嗎?明明</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「明明她是我媽,是我最親的人,對吧?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只要媽的生活過得幸福,我再辛苦再委屈也是值得。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「但這件事</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">北島先生知道嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然不知道。當女人要保守一個秘密,就是到死也不會對對方說漏半個字。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不過,我看北島先生人這麼好,又那麼愛你媽,我想即使讓他知道,他也絲毫不會介意的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你又不是他肚裡的蟲,憑甚麼下這種結論。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我當然不知道有關北島先生的所有事情,只是我認為他是個好人,不會做出拋棄妻子這種行為的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哈。你是個幸福的人,幸福的人是不會明白我這種人所背負的辛酸的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「甚麼意思?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我問你,你嚐過被拋棄的滋味嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「被朋友拋棄?被情人拋棄?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「都有。都離不開這些。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「所以我就說你是個幸福的人了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「甚麼幸福不幸福的,至少你還有一個疼愛你的媽,那不是很好嗎?很多人連</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「怎麼突然問起</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「答我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「有,比她們漂亮。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「認真點。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我猜不到,請你還是告訴我吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「告訴你,我身上其實有四份之一外國人血統。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「跨種族婚姻在這個年頭算不上是甚麼大事吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我的祖先是東歐人,鄉下在現今摩爾多瓦和羅馬尼亞一帶。縱使不時遭逢戰亂,祖先們還是勇敢地留在祖家,和這片土地共存亡。直到我爺爺一代,政府以戰略需要為名,將很多國民強行放逐離境</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不就是為節省開支和強佔民產而逃避照顧平民的責任,任他們自生自滅吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你說得沒錯,我爺爺他便是被強制驅逐離境的人之一。在兵荒馬亂的世界大戰期間,他輾轉漂泊,過程之中險象橫生,幾次在鬼門關前撿回小命,歷過千辛萬苦到達本地,其時大規模的戰事都已結束,爺爺他便在本地落腳,和一位在本地土生土長的女人結婚</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那就是我的祖母,一年後誕下我爸。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「然後呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「爺爺以為終於找到落腳點,只要繼續營營役役,要在節儉簡樸的生活中安享晚年該不成問題。可是我祖母不久便因病離世,留下爺爺一人獨力撫養我爸成人。可恨我爸並沒有遺傳到爺爺的善心,終其一生只懂花天酒地玩女人,我媽便是其中一個。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「真不好意思。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不要緊,是我主動跟你講的,有甚麼意思不意思。爺爺說,我爸是個混蛋,整天在外面招惹麻煩,只恨當年沒有好好管教兒子。媽媽說她早知我爸不是好人,曾經天真地以為有了我之後爸就會修心養性,但事實是當媽肚裡懷著我之後,爸幾乎就沒有再出現過。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">你有見過你爸嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「有呀,就在我六歲的時候。落得山窮水盡的時候跑來問我媽借錢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哼,人不要臉,天下無敵!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我媽開頭尚在猶豫到底要不要借,剛巧爺爺那天到來探望我們兩母女,還得由他大義滅親,將我爸給趕走。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那也算是罪有應得了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我爸下一次出現,是在報紙上。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「甚麼?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「『一男子街頭爛醉送院不治』之類吧,不知是醉死還是被打死,總之就是不得好死罷了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「說得完全事不關己呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「根本不關我事,他由頭到尾都沒有盡丈夫和父親的盡任。他永遠不會了解我媽為了把我養大所犧牲的一切。想當年我出生的時候,媽還不到二十歲,書讀得不多,還要一個人撐起這頭家。媽媽日復一日,每日由早到晚都在工作,工作以外的時間就用來照顧我,整個青春年華就在維持生活和對我供書教學之中給消耗掉</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">你該明白我媽對我有多重要了吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我理解,不過你打算一直維持於這種狀態嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你知道我的名字,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,有甚麼意思嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就是阿爾巴尼亞的首都,作為人名算是比較罕有。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒錯。這名字是爺爺給我改的,背後的意義在於提醒我故鄉的所在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">東歐巴爾幹半島。雖然如此,但我心裡早已有打算,媽在哪裡,我就去哪裡,除非</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「除非她的世界再容不下你?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「所以我才問你,是不是打算一直維持這種狀態。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這是我欠媽的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「兩母女有甚麼誰欠誰的?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「媽把女人最有條件爭取終身幸福的時期毫無保留地花在我身上,是我的出現令</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「令媽失去幸福。如今媽雖然有北島先生作伴,但由於媽一直都把有我這個女兒一事瞞住北島,一旦讓他知道真相,難保他不會立刻把媽拋棄掉。這場賭局的注碼實在太大,大到我根本賭不起。為了確保媽的感情生活持續穩定、美滿</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我願意像現在一樣,一直躲在暗角中。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「媽那麼愛你,必定不會拋棄你的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是嗎。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「當然,我肯定。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那,你愛我嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「答我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">想</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「算了吧,夏舒文,放過你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「對不起。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「說到被拋棄,沒有人比我的家族更在行。爺爺一直奉公守法,卻落得被政府拋棄的下場,然後到媽被那個賤人拋棄,我可以做的,就是盡一切可能避免媽再次被拋棄。這樣我就無憾了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嗯。明白。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,你不明白。像你這些從來沒真正被拋棄過的人,懂個屁。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我懂</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「夏舒文,我很喜歡你,可是我不想被你拋棄,所以我叫自己絕不要愛上你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我也喜歡你。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「省點用吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">用她雪白的背脊面向我,示意對話到此為止。我想要從後抱住她,卻被她一手推開,只好作罷。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">人到高二,稍有遠見的都嗅到公開試節節逼近的危機感,紛紛開始備戰工作,課本上遇有不明瞭的地方,總會向其他同學請教。我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">就是在這種情況下相識。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">從未和我被編進同一班,卻因為經常在自修室相遇而認識,在相互請教知識而漸漸熟絡起來。有良好數學頭腦的她,使我這位數學白痴變得沒那麼白痴;語文天份較高的我,則盡力為她改善英文科的成績。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">冷眼旁觀著還未驚覺考試將近的人漫無目的地白過每一天,再看著考試當前共同奮鬥的伴侶,沒有甚麼比這更能激發起溫習的動力。我們知道,公開試面對的絕不只是校內的蝦兵蟹將,因此即使我倆分別是所屬班別的前列份子,在準備考試的功夫上也未敢有一絲鬆懈。像我們這種只顧埋首書堆之中,幾乎不參與任何活動的書蟲,總不會是班中受歡迎份子。是自我孤立也好,是被杯葛也好,我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">都不在乎,皆因我們知道到了公開考試放榜的日子,誰才是能夠笑到最後的人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">經過長時間的備戰,把課程內外的古文背得滾瓜爛熟,把歷代君王、大小戰爭、改革成敗都分析透徹,猶如外星文字的數式也統統生吞下去,養兵千日用在一朝的時候終於來到。那時我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">分別為對方求得一道祝願考試順利的平安符。這樁事有意思之處,在於我倆事前並無約定,卻在上試場前一天不約而同向對方送上平安符,一切來得既巧合,又在情理之內。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這道滿載意義和回憶的平安符我一直放在錢包裡,每次更換錢包,第一件事便是將平安符轉移到新錢包裡,即使最終我和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是難逃分手的結果。每次想起和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">分開,我的心臟都禁不住抽搐一下,短短半秒鐘的缺氧感覺雖然難受,然而比起我放下這段舊情所需的時間,實在是差天共地。我曾經以為</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是可以共渡餘生的對象,無論是在中學,還是升讀的同一所大學,以至畢業後在社會上打滾,我倆都能始終如一,信守一生,直到她某天單方面宣布和我分手。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我在學會室遠處徘徊,留意進出的人,一直待了四、五小時,看到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的莊友逐一離開,把燈關上,卻始終不見</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的蹤影,我也只好帶著無比的失望離開。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">後來我獲悉當天發生的事,令我不得不接受和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">戀情終結的結果,那件事是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Miki </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">當天沒有從正門離開,而是從學會室背面的窗戶逃走,從二樓躍下時意外失足,左腳脛骨幾乎斷成三截,至少要休養半年。我想,既然她寧可摔傷也不願和我見面,那我也再沒有留下來的意義了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">阿卓說,這個</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #4c1130; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> Miki </span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">未免太不負責任,離開之前至少面對面說句再見嘛,不然別人會很難受的</span><span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">;</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">無雲午後的陽光雖不如日中探湯,仍甚具殺傷力。狂妄的日光毫不客氣地侵擾著眼球,使人難以睜開眼睛。在我身旁的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">也難免要用手擋在眼前,逃避那避無可避的日光。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這是個好機會,我知道。我先細心觀察</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的步伐,目測影子的方向以確認日光的源頭,然後向她靠近一點,並維持相同步速前行,不消數秒便看到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的眼皮稍為放鬆,用以遮擋日光的手也變得不再需要。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我這連串刻意的舉動,自然瞞不過</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Tirana</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。她停下腳步測試我的反應,我也跟著停下來,繼續以身高上的優勢為她擋住日光,明刀明槍地表達對她的關懷。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你還真的很細心呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「小意思,不過是舉手之勞罷了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這樣就算好?你對好的要求會不會太低了,哈哈。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「哼,那麼你說,怎樣才算是好?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「來,把手提袋給我。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「想一個人到外面走走。珍重。勿念。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jen.</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這不到二十字的信,讓大家有不同的揣測。阿卓說,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennife<wbr></wbr>r </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">可能到了郊外拍照,大概晚上就會回來;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">認為 </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是回到家人處暫住,數天之後或許會回來;我說,<wbr></wbr>她有可能到了外地散心,至少會離開一個月;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的看法最悲觀,他疑心</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">因為一時看不開而走上絕路,永遠都不會回來。<wbr></wbr>最後一個說法當下就受到非議,但當時間一天一天過去,<wbr></wbr>過了半個月,一個月,兩個月,三個月,半年,九個月,一年</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……<wbr></wbr>Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是音訊全無。說實的,雖然不容易接受,<wbr></wbr>但我們心裡已有最壞的打算。即使</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">仍會隔天打理</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的房間,即使我還是會偶然給她買小禮物,<wbr></wbr>可是她有可能永遠不會收到,這點我們從沒說出口,<wbr></wbr>但心理準備還是有的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">如今一個活生生的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">重現在我們眼前,完全是一種失而復得的感覺,<wbr></wbr>大家心中震撼之大可想而知!經過了整整一年的分別,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennif<wbr></wbr>er </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的臉上雖然添上了半分滄桑,但在氣質方面卻有加無減,<wbr></wbr>感覺上是從一個好高騖遠的年輕人,蛻變成一個成熟穩重的成年人。<wbr></wbr>而最重要的,還是看到久違的笑容在她臉上重現;<wbr></wbr>笑容中呈現出悠然自得的感覺,在她備受抑鬱困擾的一段時間中,<wbr></wbr>是絕對找不到的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">關上提供主要光源的吊燈,讓海旁街燈的光線透進室內,<wbr></wbr>唱機輕輕播放著高中時代的流行曲,<wbr></wbr>兩隻擴音器低調地亮著柔和不搶眼的藍色光芒,啤酒、<wbr></wbr>紅酒和果汁梳打伴隨著和酒小吃,堆在我們五人圍起的圈套裡。<wbr></wbr>席地而坐為彼此帶來毫無阻隔的感覺,整個環境氣氛,<wbr></wbr>和高中年代的宿舍很相似。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「能再見你實在是太好了,我以為你</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的語氣很是激動。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這臭小子,只會說出難聽的話,好話又不見你講。」<wbr></wbr>阿卓肥大的指尖直指向</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嘻嘻,我可沒有死,不過也算是經歷了一次重生吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jenni<wbr></wbr>fer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">輕輕撥弄著長髮。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你們應該都知道,從前我在舊公司很有拼勁,<wbr></wbr>除了對自己的工作力求完美之外,別人做不來的、不想做的、<wbr></wbr>沒空做的,我都挺身而出,多少替同事們分擔一些。<wbr></wbr>其時我只想用精神和時間換取工作上的成就,從而得到更好待遇。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"><wbr></wbr>Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">頓了一頓,拿起半滿的紅酒呷了一口。「『多勞多得』<wbr></wbr>這套遊戲規則在企業的下層是成立的,對此我也算得是駕輕就熟。<wbr></wbr>但當我被提拔成中層員工,<wbr></wbr>我就發現周圍彌漫著一種不同的工作氣氛,使我難以適應其中。<wbr></wbr>簡單來說,大部份中層員工都視自己身處的位置為山頂,<wbr></wbr>滿足於現狀而不求上進。這些人每天上班就像上老人院一般。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我不像他們,我告訴自己,今天之所以坐到這個位置,<wbr></wbr>全靠無間斷的努力和毅力,我把握每分每秒,付出的時間和汗水,<wbr></wbr>決不是為了僅僅停留在企業的中層,像退休人士般渡過餘生。<wbr></wbr>可是在這個位置上,我的努力不懈再沒有像從前般發光發亮。<wbr></wbr>升職試用期沒錯是順利通過了,<wbr></wbr>但我一天比一天覺得我的汗水是白白消耗在重床疊架的官僚制度中。<wbr></wbr>對於我這個好勝心強的人來說,努力過後沒得到成果,<wbr></wbr>是一件非常消磨意志的事。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「於是你就患上了抑鬱。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不,沒這麼簡單,這並不是導致我抑鬱的主因。<wbr></wbr>要知道我從小就在長輩的期望和同輩的批評中長大,<wbr></wbr>別人的話可能對我產生影響,但絕不會令我崩潰。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennife<wbr></wbr>r </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">說畢這句話,眾人都保持了一段時間的靜默。<wbr></wbr>我知道若無其事地說出這些話的背後,肯定是一段漫長的辛酸史。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">J<wbr></wbr>ennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">能夠像局外人一般,以平靜的語氣訴說自己的事,<wbr></wbr>使我不禁對她又是憐惜,又是敬佩。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「也許是吧,但其實我不稀罕。<wbr></wbr>我的滿足感主要來自覺得自己是個有用的人,而不是他人的讚許。<wbr></wbr>到我攀升到企業中層的初期,雖然工作上遇到阻滯,<wbr></wbr>但我還是自信滿滿,深信有天能衝破這個關口,<wbr></wbr>然後向更高的位置邁進。直到有一天</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">喝了一口紅酒,舉杯的動作比剛才大,使杯上物幾乎要濺出來。「<wbr></wbr>直到有一天,我在神差鬼使之下,去看網上的招聘廣告。<wbr></wbr>當初我只是帶著好奇的心態,<wbr></wbr>去留意一下最近的就業市場上哪一行比較缺人,<wbr></wbr>可是當我一直看下去,愈看得多,心中就愈有種感覺,<wbr></wbr>覺得自己一無是處,甚麼也不懂。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒可能!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">激烈地揮著手,表示難以置信。「你這麼能幹,又怎會一無是處!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒錯,在舊公司裡我是一名要員,<wbr></wbr>再過個兩三年也許還能呼風喚雨,但離開公司之後呢?<wbr></wbr>我的所知所能,全部與公司有關,也就是說除了公司的事情以外,<wbr></wbr>我甚麼都不知曉。莫道我不知道現在流行甚麼音樂和衣裝,連最簡單</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"><wbr></wbr>——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那晚在公司附近有人向我問路,我也是啞口無言!<wbr></wbr>即使我對公司的歷史、高層人員的名字和頭銜、部門的財政狀況,<wbr></wbr>甚至在某份計劃書中找到幾個錯字我都瞭如指掌,那又如何?<wbr></wbr>事實是離開了公司,我連一個普通人都稱不上</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「傻瓜,你是普通人,我是普通人,大家都是普通人,<wbr></wbr>有甚麼好比較的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不禁長嘆一口氣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">把</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">抱住,來回輕撫她的後腦勺表示安慰,自己卻首先眼泛淚光。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我想抑鬱的心理大概就是在那時開始形成。在這種心理狀況下,<wbr></wbr>我無法好好專心工作,一天裡總要躲進傷殘人士廁所,<wbr></wbr>為怨恨自己的無能而偷泣。另一方面我更加投入在工作之中,<wbr></wbr>意圖用超越自己承受範圍的工作量,去壓碎對自身無能的恐懼。<wbr></wbr>結果是怎樣,你們應該都記得。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你在公司暈倒,在醫院待了半天才醒轉過來,」阿卓回憶著。「<wbr></wbr>主診醫生說你心理和體力嚴重透支,還警告說假如情況沒改善,<wbr></wbr>下次再暈倒的話,有可能永遠不會再醒過來。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">略略點頭,門牙輕輕咬著下唇,似是猶有餘悸。身旁的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">感懷她的遭遇,已無法控制淚水像決堤般湧出,反過來受到</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的安慰。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你知道嗎,」我也加入了回憶的行列。「<wbr></wbr>你醒來之後第一句話是問這是甚麼地方,接下來第二句就是『<wbr></wbr>我要回公司』。以你當其時的狀況,這根本和自殺無分別,<wbr></wbr>但你卻不顧一切,堅持要上班繼續工作,要</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">和</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">合力按住你,阿卓守在門口,我和醫生輪流勸說,<wbr></wbr>你才乖乖接受留院觀察一晚的決定。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「對呀,以後每次憶起這一幕,都覺得自己實在好瘋,瘋得過火,<wbr></wbr>連性命都不顧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">細長的食指輕輕掠過眼簾,沾走一滴淚水。「<wbr></wbr>若不是你們堅持不讓我離開,再過不到兩天,<wbr></wbr>我大概就成為辦公室文件下的亡魂了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">又是一陣靜默。唱機微弱的歌聲,環迴往復的海浪聲,還有</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">輕輕的啜泣聲,使在室中席地而坐的我們顯得很渺小,<wbr></wbr>小得根本無從控制自己的命運。但同時也讓我們體會到一點:<wbr></wbr>在滾滾俗世之中,有緣遇到這幾位肝膽相照的好知己,<wbr></wbr>是一生中最幸福的事。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「由於暫時失去工作的心力和體力,我只好向公司提出辭職,<wbr></wbr>但直至我向老板第三次提出,他才不情願地接受。<wbr></wbr>此前他還以為我被敵對公司挖角,問我外面給我開的月薪有多少,<wbr></wbr>他願意提供那筆數字的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> 150% </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">月薪來留住我,真教我哭笑不得。<wbr></wbr>當時我根本連打開招聘廣告的勇氣也沒有,<wbr></wbr>更遑論有其後公司向我招手了吧。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「到我終於辭掉工作留在家中休養,我把自己關在房間裡,<wbr></wbr>不斷問自己:我到底是誰?是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。那</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">代表甚麼?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">懂得甚麼?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">需要甚麼?在其他人眼中,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是一個怎樣的人?下班之後的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Jennifer</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,和在公司裡的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Jennifer </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">是相同的嗎?每天就這樣橫七豎八的胡思亂想,一天接著一天過去,<wbr></wbr>卻總是理不出一個頭緒來。那大約有半個月的時間,雖然不是很長,<wbr></wbr>卻算得上是我人生的低谷。我不是未嘗過失敗的滋味,<wbr></wbr>然而這種行屍走肉的生活,對我來說還算頗新鮮。」末句一記自嘲,<wbr></wbr>讓人聽了倍添傷感。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那時看到大家擔心的神情,對我的關懷備至,雖然我沒有說出口,<wbr></wbr>但心底裡其實滿是感動。尤其是阿卓,沒有你,<wbr></wbr>我可能永遠都站不起來。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"> 「那是前所未有的暢快感覺。</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">此前我一來從未真正享受過拍攝的樂趣,二來只知道有水塘的存在,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">知道它的功能在於儲水,但還未親身踏足過,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">更不知道本地還有這般優美的景色。那天晚上我反覆自問:</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">我算是甚麼?由小學到大學到走進社會,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">我一直都比別人走得更快更前,自詡能力比人強,見識較別人廣,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">但原來當我離開自己熟悉的範圍後,便瞬間變得一無所知。</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">公司附近的地點,郊外的風光,和我距離不遠,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">可我卻對它們完全陌生。但這次我沒再自暴自棄,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">沒再陷入更深層的抑鬱,因為我知道我已經輸得徹底,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">以後再沒有任何東西可以再輸了。當下我決定要到外邊闖一番,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">把自己只曾耳聞不曾目睹的世界,逐分逐吋去看個清楚。</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">我知道這是唯一可以令我重過新生的辦法,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">而且我也需要短暫離開這個繁囂的大都會,給自己舒一口氣的空間。</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">於是當晚拿了護照和必須品就出發到機場,買了張臨時機票,</span><wbr style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;"></wbr><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 32px;">展開我的流浪旅程。」</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">為了那份重要的文件,我不得不趕回去。是的,我知道餐廳多半已經打烊,然而我必須孤注一擲,祈望北島先生或太太,或者任何一位員工現下還留在店裡,否則往後的麻煩就大了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是的,遺下了一個</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">F4</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大小的公文袋,大約是兩小時前遺下的,就在那個角落</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">請問你有見過嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「讓我找找看,你先坐一會好了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那女孩往放滿酒瓶的吧台走去。一下杯底和雲石檯面輕碰的聲音,一隻在她手上顯得有點過大的鐵鑄茶壺,一抹潔白無瑕的輕煙,燻醉著氣質淡雅的黃色石英燈。清新的玄米茶香油然而生,隨著她把拳頭高度的茶杯端放在我的桌面,茶的清香就更顯得細膩怡人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「喔,好像是呢」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我放下喝到一半的茶,接過那沉甸甸的公文袋。「對了,沒錯就是這個!太感謝你了!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">她再次向我淺笑,像是在對我說:小意思,別客氣。把離家出走的文件放回手提袋的一剎,恍如放下心頭大石,不由得鬆一口氣。把杯中的茶一口喝光,洗清這兩小時來積累的烏氣,立時振作不少。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你是在這裡打兼職吧?」正準備離開的我問道。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「算不上是兼職啦,有空就來幫幫忙而已。」那女孩道。「我跟收銀姨姨很稔熟,有時間就會來看看她。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「原來如此。好吧,不打擾你了,我走啦。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">她向我微微點頭,以一抹淺笑代替「再見」兩個字。這是我今天第三次看到她這種淺淺的笑。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">步到街頭,驟雨已經停歇,路上大大小小的水灘恢復平靜,不再無的放矢地泛起漣漪,稀少的途人當中,尚有零星的杞人憂天者還用力撐起雨傘自保。到達兩條街外的電車站,看著手機顯示的時間,正擔心尾班車是否已經開出之際,電車車輪和軌道磨擦的聲音就自遠而近的傳來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">真是一切順利的一天,順利到我幾乎忘卻較早之前才為遺下文件而狼狽不堪。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">周六接近中午時份,只有我一人閒賦在家</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿卓到了某支球隊的主場,為他們的開幕禮作現場直播;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">正為一個創作人研討會作客席嘉賓;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">則去了畫室教小孩畫畫。在制定今天的計劃之前,我先為自己準備一頓早餐。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那勉強可歸類為英式早餐的早餐,伴隨著隨風送上的海鹽味,讓我享受了十五分鐘悠閑時光。在洗滌杯碟期間,我聽到門匙插進匙孔的聲音,隨即就想:回來的會是誰呢?阿卓身處的球場離這裡有點遠,大概不會太早回來;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">參與的研討會預計一直舉行到下午(雖然也不可否定,這個性情奇怪的傢伙,有藉詞遁走的可能);</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的畫班照計已完結,因此我推斷待會出現在門口的,就是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「我回來了</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」平底鞋踏在桃木地板上,發出沉悶的聲響。出現在門口的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,看上去只剩半條人命。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「嘩,你怎麼了,剛去了打仗嗎?」我把濕漉漉的雙手拭乾。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「八國聯軍攻打北京,戰況慘烈,死得人多呀!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">想要一頭栽進我的肩頭上,奈何身高所限,她最後只一頭撞在我的手臂上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我把她扶穩,安放在客廳角落的按摩椅上,讓電動按摩程式開始運行,為看來奄奄一息的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">及時充充電。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對我作了個露齒笑以道謝,隨即開始講述今天早上的遭遇。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">大約在兩天前,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">接到大學同學阿樂的電話。對方表示由於畫室原來的兒童班導師家裡突然有事,自己又要出外公</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">幹到星期日才回來,因此想請</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">在星期六早上客串一節兒童畫班。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">答應了。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那畫室位於一個相當富麗堂皇且現代化的商場內,那一年前才落成啟用的商場,幾乎每個角落都散發著紙醉金迷的氣息,一看就知是特別為別國遊客</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">正確說法是,為了別國遊客的荷包而打造的。這種氣場讓</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">有點透不過氣的感覺。商場通道上那些看似有藝術感實質十之八九都是抄襲的塑像,更是令吃這行飯的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">感到異常氣憤。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你是今天早上來代課的吧?」接待處女孩過了足足十秒才開口講話,當然視線還是停留在手機上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「沒錯,是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">9:30</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">至</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">11:00</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那班。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">9:35</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,接待處女孩帶著八個前來上畫班的小孩進入課室。那些小孩都很年幼,當中看上去年紀最大的也不過六、七歲,其中有本地的,也有不同膚色的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不用理會?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">心想,雖然我只是臨時替工,但這些小子畢竟是我的學生,現在搞成這個狀況,真不知如何向人交代。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「你知道,」接待處女孩在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">背後繞過,從</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的右側走到左側,冷眼看著目前這場風波。「為何這些小孩的家長要把子女送來我們這裡?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">想:那當然是想他們學會畫畫呀,在功利的角度看,多懂一門技藝對升學也有幫助,不是嗎?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「別的地方我不知道,但在這兒,我告訴你,只有兩個原因:一、贖罪;二、卸責。」接待處女孩伸出兩根手指,比向課室中央兩個拿文具當戰鬥機玩的小孩。「這兩兄妹的父母都是白手興家的進取型,為了工作甚麼都可以不理,去年底就出了一本書,講述夫婦倆的『糞鬥屎』,還強調一天工作的時間是睡眠的三、四倍呢。這樣哪有時間照顧子女呢對不對,所以他們夫婦倆為這對兄妹安排了各式各樣的活動,甚麼畫班、游泳班、劍擊班、詩歌班,一應俱全,口講是為了使子女有豐盛的童年,實際上不過是想彌補自己沒付出來和子女共渡的時間而已。因為自己沒時間、也不打算盡好作為家長的盡任,所以就把子女送到這裡來,讓自己心裡好過點。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「另一類嘛,簡單來說,就是老牛吃嫩草的家庭。」接待處女孩雙手交疊胸前,用下巴指向課室角落的陸軍裝男孩。「他老爸打拼半生,在政界商界都算是混了點名氣,今年五十有八,卻在幾年前娶了個才二十出頭的丫頭做老婆。他一天到晚在公司辛苦賺錢養妻活兒,那女的結婚之後無所事事,通宵達旦打麻雀和無節制地購物已是家常便飯,最近好像還去勾引舊情人呢。(你怎知道的?)我有幾位在酒吧打工的朋友,幾乎每日都看到城中名人的另一面。總之,最可憐的,就是這個被當成人球的小子,父親沒空理,母親不想理,把兒子放在這裡美其名是學畫畫,實際上不過是當我們這裡是托兒所罷了。」接待處女孩打了個呵欠。「不只是他,這裡起碼有一半人的家庭都是這個模樣,有一個好像還是情婦兒子,未出生就沒了爸。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">目光呆滯的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">點點頭,心中暗想:明明我今天的身份是畫班導師,怎麼卻變成了在上社會課的學生?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">距離下課還有約莫十分鐘,接待處女孩向小孩們宣布下課,請他們排好隊,準備讓工人姐姐接走。下課的消息是個喜訊,也大概是唯一一個小孩們會聽話的時刻。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那畫呢?我還未真正開始教他們畫畫,他們的畫簿空空如也,不怕家長怪罪嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">很是焦急,刻意把聲線壓低。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「第一,他們回去會自己畫,然後說這是畫班老師教他們畫的,不必擔心,小孩子撒謊的能力是會遺傳的。第二,即使他們不畫,父母也沒空閒去欣賞子女的作品,不是嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「那</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這課室被弄得亂七八糟,要不要</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這個爛攤子就留給阿樂去處理好了,嘿嘿。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">短暫的畫班導師生涯就這樣完結,而她始終未曾得到全班同學的注意力。儘管她從前也有教畫的經驗,但經過今天早上的一役,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">對這種「貴族兒童畫班」已起了戒心。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">離開畫室歸家途中,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">收到了接待處女孩寄來的短訊:「</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">姐姐,說真的,我很喜歡你</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">不是那種『喜歡』啦,只是欣賞你是真正有心教畫,而不是靠點三腳貓功夫出來混口飯吃的人。如果阿樂再請你幫手的話,你就不要答應了,因為這裡不是讓你才能好好發揮的地方。保持聯絡吧</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"><3</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Love,</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這女孩還蠻有意思的。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是嗎?那下次約她出來跟你認識好不好?她的樣子可是你喜歡的類型喔。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不用了,我</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」我突然想不到下半句該說甚麼,只能尷尬地笑著蒙混過關。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">果然,近期每當提到或聯想到男女關係,哪怕只是一閃而過的思緒,我都總會下意識地想到那個人,那個背負著一段如曇花般稍瞬即逝的關係的人。由我終於說服自己開始,我一直相信無論過程中存有幾多問號,這也是個已經劃上句點的故事。現在呢?那個背影,那股香水味,到底是真實的存在,還是發自我主觀感覺純粹一廂情願的投射?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">根據一個受訪人數以億計的非正式統計,一星期七日裡最不受歡迎的日子,星期一高踞榜首。要是再細分早午晚,一星期裡最不受歡迎的,則是星期一晚上,理由是明明已經過一天辛勞的工作,卻發現還有四天要捱。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">其時正在播放的,是</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Katy Perry</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的《</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">E.T.</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">》</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">必須說明,我個人對</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">KP</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">並無好感,甚至算得上是厭惡,然而比起更加煩人的講電話聲,在兩害取其輕,加上是她主動借我,不好意思推卻的考量之下,我聽了一首,兩首,三首</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">直至巴士到站之前,我不肯定我聽到多少首,反正我沒有很用心去聽,只知道聽的都是同一個人的歌。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">巴士到站,意味著我終於可以脫離</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Katy Perry</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的魔爪(謝天謝地!)。我摘下那雙粉藍色的耳筒還給她,跟她揮手道別。她報以一個迷人的淺笑,隨即頭也不回,背影消失在她家所在的一幢舊樓的梯間。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「早上到甜品店上班,晚上又要到料理店打工,你還真是個大忙人呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「料理店那邊其實也不算是打工啦,只是有空就去幫幫忙,反正我就住在樓上。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「看來你真的很喜歡那家料理店呢。不過這也難怪,北島先生的廚藝絕對是一試難忘,我只吃過一次,就知道我會成為常客了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「對呀,而且北島先生為人也很友善。還記得我上次跟你提及過收銀姨姨嗎?她是我的表姐,對我十分關照。每次我在料理店跟他們共事,總有說不出的樂趣。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">(這根本是正常不過的事,換著是你跌倒,你都會設法找個平衡點吧</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"><span style="font-size: 11.5pt;">某天當我提起這件事,阿卓</span><span style="font-size: 15px;">如</span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">是</span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">說</span></span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">。)</span></div>
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Amethianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15722072328296565317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5618491506457016929.post-69644773531144466542014-07-20T22:35:00.000+08:002015-07-24T17:49:08.153+08:00《盛夏》第一~二回<br />
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本來想利用這個空間,洋洋灑灑地講述故事的大概,意念的由來,當中的反思等等。可是轉念又想,還是一切從簡好了。讓讀者不受干擾地感受故事,遠比由我告訴你應該怎樣看要好。<br />
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《盛夏》這個名字,是某晚將要睡著之際突然想到的。盛夏,除了是故事發生的季節外,更因為故事中不同的人物,各自以不同的方式渡過自己的盛夏之年。當中有自己選擇走哪一條路,也有受時勢所迫,不得不放棄理想中道路的人。<br />
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短暫的盛夏之年一去不復返,只顧爭名逐利,爭辜負了錦堂風月,多可惜!<br />
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">乙:嗯,我知道了。回到你的工作崗位去吧。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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第一回</span></h3>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這陣子特別討厭上班。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">早上九時瑟縮在被窩,是因為天氣冷,更是出於逃避上班的行為反射。每天如是。可我又絕對不得不上班</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">除非我是生來就含著金鎖匙的公子哥兒,或者剛剛中了彩票得到巨獎。那就是說,除了這兩類人之外,所有人都得工作,不論你喜歡與否。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">好像有點扯得太遠,還是繼續說我要說的事吧。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">發生在今天早上。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">正確的說法,是我嗅到了她的氣味,再看到她的身影。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">那獨特的蘋果味香水,曾經是她的標誌。每次和她單獨相處,幾乎都會尋到這股芳香,一股比噴上香水的人更脫俗的清雅芳香。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">思緒被粗暴地打斷。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">隨著一聲巨響,大門應聲打開,連帶發生的強勁氣流掀動著放在大門附近的時裝雜誌。滿臉通紅,大汗淋漓的阿卓大搖大擺的跨進室內,把手上的籃球投進放置污衣的大膠籃裡。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">阿卓是我五個室友之一。他的體型魁梧,肌肉強壯,皮膚黝黑,堪稱為標準的運動員身形。臉上長著一雙細長的眼,配合略為豐滿的雙唇,使他看來像古時衝鋒陷陣的將軍,滿有霸氣。豪邁的言行舉止十分切合他的外型,說一不二的個性加上有話直說的表達方式,令人感覺毫不拖泥帶水,是個典型的行動派。攝影是他的專業,同時也是他的興趣,接</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> free-lance </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">工作的收入足夠他繳付房租,應付日常開支,買入開工架生,以及購買籃球球衣和裝備。在攝影以外,籃球就是阿卓的第二大興趣。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">方才的一下巨響,毫無疑問是阿卓把大門踢開時所造成的。冷不防被嚇一跳的我,霎時被迫脫離思考,回到人間。我並不打算怪責阿卓,儘管這不是他第一次把其他人嚇到。這就是他,一個粗枝大葉,個性有點魯鈍,卻從來不做見不得光事的人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「熱死人了!」阿卓大嚷著。「上星期明明還是手指凍僵的天氣</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我沒回應他。並不是我不想回應,而是有另外一個人搶先回了話。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「粟米班腩飯吧,謝了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">只是錯覺吧,我想。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">為何這般在意呢?我問自己。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">反正她大概不會再出現了。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">還是根本不愛她?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「來,吃糖。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">輕輕推我一下,手中拿著一小盒七彩包裝的糖果。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">我把那盒軟糖拿在手中,看著包裝,好像忽然記起了甚麼。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這東西怎麼會在你手上?」我困惑地問。</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;">這時</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">交通已逐漸回復正常。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「不是我的,我只是剛找到而已。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">指一指前座兩個座位之間的小型儲物箱。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「這包奇怪的糖果貌似放很久了,你看看有沒有過期喔。」已收起畫筆的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">道。「早陣子在桌子上發現的,見無人認領便隨手把它放到車上去了。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「是手信呀。難怪你這般緊張了,哈哈哈。來,還給你。」說罷雙手盛著軟糖,恭恭敬敬地交還給我。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「還好老板沒將這家店當作搖錢樹,否則我們根本沒可能吃到這麼好吃的料理呢。」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">Rena </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">臉上盡是滿足的神情。這是她頭一次光臨北島的料理店。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">「只有本地那些俗不可耐的商人才會這樣</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">——</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">把大量金錢投放在公關,做盡鋪天蓋地的大型宣傳,只顧搞噱頭,賣的卻都是垃圾!」</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">H </span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">在享受美食的同時也不忘揶揄。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">的確,這家料理店有一種與別不同的感覺,很能吸引到人。「與別不同」之不同於「標奇立異」,在於那種自然生成,毫無斧鑿痕跡之美。比如說店裡頭一種和諧恬靜的氣氛,是很難在其他餐廳中感受得到的。在這家名為「北島日式料理」的店裡,人們享受窗戶帶來的空氣流通,沒有人投訴為何沒開冷氣;安心等待廚師慢工出細貨,沒有人會不耐煩地一直催促。一流的用膳環境,最適合星期五晚上前來放鬆心情。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">作為老板,北島先生若不是在廚房裡忙著,就會擔起服務客人的工作。他的本地話說得不算標準,但也無損他和客人打交道的興致,有時甚至會和客人聊起時事來。作為一個外地人,這是相當難得的,也顯出北島先生為了融入本地所付出的努力。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">坐在接待處兼收銀台的,就是北島先生的太太。這位看上去</span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">大</span></span><span style="font-size: 15px; text-indent: 24pt;"><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">約</span></span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt; text-indent: 24pt;">四十歲的女士,除了負責收錢外,還會定時打掃店面。北島太太是本地人,名字叫胡美華,婚後辭去了工作,全力協助丈夫打理他的心血。由於常作恬淡樸素的打扮,使這位中年女士顯得格外和藹可親。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">店裡頭經常會遇到的,還有另外一人,不過那人今天不在,唯有留待以後再作介紹。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">這頓晚飯吃得大家心滿意足,尤其是頭一次到來的</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11.5pt;"> Rena</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; font-size: 11.5pt;">,感動得幾乎要流淚。</span></div>
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